My Life

2010-11-03T20:21:00.000-07:00

hello world! this blog is so dead like me! but i will revive it like NOW. wtf am i talking. SO CHENG CHUAN. hahhahha

my life hasn't been great. GPA kinda screwed, still got PACC retest and didn't really go well. MOB got project and ONOW dk do what crap.

the ONOW need do a stupid essay. then slack slack forgot to do. then need to go to his desk and put waste time.

OH YA. i took music appreciation for GEMS and it rocks cuz got my friend accompany me. shoik. hahhahhahah (i just praised myself)

SO LONG SUCKERRSSS. BUHBYE.

2010-09-27T10:21:00.001-07:00

Working..intense work..really tired..but when i get home and listen to SNSD,i feel energetic again!

2010-09-08T09:10:00.001-07:00

Didnt post for quite a long time le lols..Update on current life.. I HAVENT LISTEN TO CHINESE POP FOR DAMN LONG LE! NOW!! ITS GIRLS GENERATION! lols.never thought that i would listen to kpop and to SNSD somemore.. thinking bout the times where i laugh at derek liking snsd and all these..hahas.. 4 words.. bu ke si yi! now..need to save money...then can buy their posters and sorts! hahas.. a soshi member need his funds to support snsd!

2010-07-15T09:46:00.000-07:00

Aiyo, bu cuo worh.so long never post liao.. :D hahas...anyway, in my poly, alot of people speculating who i like and questionings too..just to reply, i dont like anyone now and wont like anyone..Unless there's someone whom i think that it will last for a rather long period..I dont want those together together then 2 months break all these..cause as far as i see, i'm not friends anymore with my exs.sad right?hahas i know la..prolly cause my character like that,abit shy,and abit awkward..also, i wont be loud unless i m with my close frens, some of your might know :D hahs..sorry,its not that i m anti or dao k?just tt i m shy and dont know what to talk about..hahas..
NOW!Jam Hsiao's Mr Rock Concert CD and DVD is coming out!Jay Chou's album has a ticket that allows me to go for his autograph session..but i already got his album..SO!WHICH ONE SHOULD I BUY?

2010-06-23T10:38:00.000-07:00

I used to think that the best performer will continue to perform no matter how little audience he has,because he or she will still manage to deliver what he wanted to deliver to the audience.Actually,every performer needs his/her audience,because just performing what he intended to perform is not enough.The thing that they want is the applause from the audience.To be recognised.That's the term.For the past 4 years,i dont really have anyone coming to my choir performance.i had to sell 10 tickets in sec 1 for my More Than Words concert.i didnt manage to sell any.not even to my parents.sec 2's choral series at SCH,none of my friends came.sec 3 musical,i dont know if anyone came.sec 4 combined choir,only joshua came.that's all.my main audience.i want my friends to applause for me.i want them to come to me and say i love the music u did.but as your see,it was pathetic.In 7 days time,there will be another concert.i dont know how many friends will come.But to those who really wanna come to enjoy the music,thanks for coming and giving your support..really..it matters alot to me.

2010-06-07T07:18:00.000-07:00

Feeling really sick..Not in the best of health.Suddenly..but why at this time? i need to prepare for a concert on 30th June..seriously cant afford to fall sick now. Ms whoever you are.please appear..i need some support right now..

2010-05-20T23:15:00.000-07:00

Beginning to feel the stress of Poly life, but surprisingly, i prefer poly life over secondary life...it's more free here...A few highlights over this week.. Went for my piano ensemble interview, hope i get in..really...cause i really want to start learning the piano..ASAP!even if i dont get in, i would persuade my parents to get me 1 so i can self-learn when i'm free. there's also my guitar interview..this one i dont really feel anything..if i get in, i get in. if i don't, i don't..that club is rather abit uncoordinated..the way the interview was held..there's just so many people speaking at one go..hais..and then after that went to food court 3 to eat with a friend then went home..watched Jay Chou's Treasure Hunter on the bus..hahas..that feeling was rather great xD..sky was abit dark and it did gave an ambience..kinda enjoyed it...then homed...hahas..this is just the beginning of an exciting lifestyle xD

2010-05-20T07:34:00.000-07:00

Blog reopened!thanks ying han for the skin

2010-01-30T23:30:00.001-08:00

Come on someone...follow me to Jam Hsiao's concert please please will ya?lols..absolutely alone..who would follow me lehs..march 13 8pm $148 seat
I'm really confused now..What do i really want?I myself know but how come i'm hesitating now?Screw this man..Life's principle..
Truth Hurts,Life Sucks,Go and Die..

2010-01-16T18:36:00.000-08:00

Felt very sick recently..Lots of conditions popping up..My nose problem certainly worsen for whatever reasons..My head and heart started to feel pains at times..really felt worse than dying..If i were to live like that till 50..i would rather die...really..maybe death might so be a better relief for me...

2009-12-19T04:59:00.000-08:00

Finally back from taiwan.Went to lots of places..kinda rushed trip eh..everyday must wake up at 6am liddat.then reach hotel at 10pm de..hahas..tiring trip lorhs..never mind..was kinda worth it anyways..bought lots of food,some clothes some toys and some other things here and there..but the few things that i find quite worth it to buy was my jacket which costs 77-82 odd dollars,some toys that add up to 30 dollars and 1 more thing.I bought Genie 卓文萱's Play Fun 1+1 album.found this album the most worth it de..hahas..since the day i came back i've been listening to her songs..really nice!hahas..don't be mistaken.Jam's still on top!hahas..favourite male singer is Jam while favourite female is Genie.hahas..oo..and i went to Mr. J italian restaurant!Jay Chou open one..this branch is the smaller one compared to the one at Taipei Medical University that one..hahas..!foods' quite nice lorh.hahas..kinda enjoyed it overall la..the trip hahas...

可能我所做的一切只会让你想逃。只要听你说那一句，我就会放手。I watched a show in taiwan and there's one line i particularly remember. "I can't live without you,but i will try."

2009-12-05T19:18:00.000-08:00

Sorry if i hurt you...maybe everything could have been prevented if i didn't tell you..sorry..

2009-12-04T05:49:00.000-08:00

I just don't want you to be unhappy.Whatever you do, please remain happy,for if you are happy,i am too.

2009-12-02T19:58:00.000-08:00

haven't really blogged in a long long time..gonna be 1 month soon eh..hahas..gonna go to taiwan and shop and shop and shop for my things..i wanna get shirts and pants..hahas..and the Jam album's i do not have; Wang Fei and tong ming zhuan ji..hahas..and to you..i think i like you..

萧敬腾的签唱会

2009-11-07T19:45:00.000-08:00

Pictures i took when i went to Jam's autography session @ Lot 1 CCK.reacch there bout 9.45.Its supposed to start at 3.. Despite being late for almost 1 hour..i am still happy that i can finally see my idol in live action... He performed 王妃 and 会痛的石头..His live performance..1 word.. 赞! his eyes are so mesmerizing too.. i m not gay though but his eyes are really..omg..xD hahas..shook hands with him too..hahas..he really rocks xD..thanks ben and daoying for accompanying xD

2009-10-21T04:30:00.000-07:00

DONT FUCKING GET ON MY NERVES! you are reaching the limits of my patience. DON'T PISS ME OFF!

2009-09-28T04:59:00.000-07:00

Bob is so right. A person's at his true self when he is alone.This is because he has nothing more to hide. I've thought bout lots of things on my bus trip home. I realised what Bob said on his blog make sense. I agar-agar know the reason for Bob's so called "emoness". All things he said made sense (except for his phrasing). Sometimes its not that i dont wanna play by what your want me to do. Its just that i will get things which i do not wanna hear. Worst still these things really hit me right down. Its not that i want it,i was born with this problem. How to change?i dont blame your for being unhappy with it la..but just to say.it does hurts. After all i will think ; why get disliked over things when its not your fault? If anyone don't understand anything,you just dont understand what i'm feeling now

請原諒我
原諒我不成熟
不愛妳是藉口
好讓妳離開我
請原諒我
好想自私將妳佔有
一個寂寞就給我承受
換妳過更好的生活

2009-09-26T22:44:00.000-07:00

爱过了头-萧敬腾

當你哭著對我說你對不起我
原來你和他不只是好朋友
為你打造的王國禁不起誘惑
你算準我會原諒你的選擇
誰能夠預知的結果
愛從左胸口出走
愛過了頭我一個人狂奔怒吼
我沒有哭卻讓汗水給吞沒
愛過了頭沒了出口就只能放手
我給你自由為什麼我雙手卻在顫抖
你說他比我幽默比我懂生活
你喜歡享受刺激勝過溫柔
愛應該儘情揮霍我有膽承受
哪怕會讓人墮落也勝過沒愛過
誰能夠預知的結果
愛從左胸口出走
愛過了頭我一個人狂奔怒吼
像隻困獸舔著傷口的活著
愛過了頭沒了出口就只能割捨
我給你自由為什麼我的心卻在顫抖
別問我難不難過
oh ~像隻困獸舔著傷口的活著
愛過了頭沒了出口就只能割捨
我給你自由為什麼我的心卻在顫抖
我沒有難過只是愛你比你愛我更多

也许，我就是这样吧

2009-09-15T04:18:00.000-07:00

This is such a scary feeling. Just had my tuition and i was shocked..my mind's in a blank..really dont know what i am thinking or what...I feel as though i lost my sanity...Am i going into depression?I dont seem like it though..i dont know why...kami-sama help!!!

2009-08-20T04:43:00.000-07:00

I got an A1 For chinese.But i wasn't that overjoyed..i was..at the start..but then it turned out to be the other way instead..The price to pay for that A1 are actually my friends..i seemed to be distant from them.hais..i don't know how many say "why you got A1?" i heard..yup..perhaps i really was lucky that i got an A1 but it is still an A1 right?i was damn disappointed in thsoe people..maybe they don't mean it..but still..never mind that..maybe thats the difference like what bob always say..a real buddy and a friend.despite that,i am quite happy that i had mahendran , phae and bob all this as my buddies..they were happy for me..and i was happy..cause they helped share the joy..otherwise getting an A1 also no point..thanks dudes!

didnt update for like dont know how many days..nobody comes thats why..update cause told bob i would..yup..i'm more motivated to study now..cause i've tasted the sweetness of getting an A1..I WANT MORE!MORE!AND EVEN EVEN MORE!at least 2 more..despite still here daydreaming that i can get all A1 (except art).MUAHAHAHA!

Life this few weeks have been boring..its repeating repeating repeating repeating,..fucking bored..i can't take it anymore!!!ANYONE PLEASE TAKE ME TO INITIALD ! I FUCKING MISSED IT

2009-07-23T05:23:00.000-07:00

這是一首簡單的小情歌
唱著人們心腸的曲折
我想我很快樂
當有你的溫熱
腳邊的空氣轉了
這是一首簡單的小情歌
唱著我們心頭的白鴿
我想我很適合
當一個歌頌者
青春在風中飄著
你知道
就算大雨讓整座城市顛倒
我會給你懷抱
受不了
看見你背影來到寫下我
度秒如年難捱的離騷
就算整個世界被寂寞綁票
我也不會奔跑
逃不了
最後誰也都蒼老
寫下我時間和琴聲交錯的城堡

XIAO QING GE ROCKS MAN!!

2009-07-03T19:53:00.000-07:00

Fate is just so unpredictable...Everything in your life is already arranged..but yet you yourself do not know what's going to come out for you..Recently performed in the Combined Choir in the SYF Choral Presentation...At first..Me, Zack and Tan Ying were supposed to represent the school but later on..Zack do not want to skip his 'O's music while Tan Ying had reasons and she can't go.Seeing these 2 not going..i didn't felt like going either but i did..Calvin and Denice replaced them and went with me..Now..I can say..i think i enjoyed going with Calv and Denice..and i think that i would have enjoyed their company more than Zack and Tan Ying's..1 reason..i simply know them too much..i got to know Calv and Denice more in this event..and i' quite happy with the result..I know more about my juniors and i got closer to them..and what's more..i had a breakthrough in my 4 years of music making..its not bout the results but the process..from that performance...i didnt care about whether we did it well,ok or whatsoever..but i just need to say...i enjoyed it..thats the difference in MF choir and Combined Choir under Mr Zechariah Goh and Mr Stephen Leek..i truly enjoyed myself despite going through all the hard work..for the sake of one thing..;to enjoy..although i didnt want to go at first..i m glad i did..
Talking bout enjoying which group's company..i unwarily thought of another topic...about her..she didnt wanna talk to me anymore...so i guess it should be all over..no hope..no nothing...but i wont emo about it..really..couldnt get used to it at first..and plus i had to stand the "digs" friends made at me...but its all ok now...maybe because we talk too often that we ended up having nothing to talk about?or am i really a "boring" person...?maybe i am boring...once a while i take notes she wrote to read..and i often smile after that..memories...the memories were really beautiful...like they say....no matter how beautiful the sunset is.it will turn into eternal darkness..but what you should do is..look forward to the next sunrise

2009-06-05T07:06:00.000-07:00

I finally realised..I'm such a fucking foolish guy..doing stupid stuffs..maybe he was right.i shouldn't be an SL after all..not fit to wear the tie and sorts..something just screwed up today..after choir..Me and Xavier fought...we were stopped by mr chen..explained to us and solved the matter..i accepted the explanation while Xavier can't really exactly accept at that point..but i was not exactly convinced that the matter is solved.called xavier at bout 9 to explain that i overlooked a problem,that Xavier is just a kid,he wont how to draw the line between personal and work.i talked to him and then i can call it solved..mdm yam spoke too and said i shouldnt be too close to xavier..others started lecturing me...Fuck this thing all together..i've already been through this..at home,i m the older one..i'm usually blamed for all the wrong things my bro did and explained that i am responsible in a way or another..in choir i am blamed for the wrong things i did..nobody realised i didnt want to fight xavier at all..not because i am afraid,or the discipline action behind the actions...its because i really dont want to..people should know...yet they still commented on my actions...truly disappointed at everything...at everyone..they just dont know me enough..

Fuck the guy who said that will be no winners in a fight..cause i just known..that the winners of that fight is the DC and those who wanna watch us fall..well..they achieved it..they should celebrate...the limelight will be theirs..but in the backstage...the hurt of two people wont be seen...I've totally lost interest in myself,my life and everyone around..really...those people wanted to say something should really bang their heads against the wall...when we were fighting,no one stopped it...when it stopped..then they talk..hais..i dont feel like going back for choir le...一失足成千古恨..yes..i did something wrong and now i am totally condemned...i am not a good senior or whatsoever...xavier too...is life really like that?whats more..the person i thought who would step out to say something in defence for me didnt..and the person who used to cheer me up in a way or another isnt here anymore..
Fuck life,Fuck Me,Fuck everything..Truth hurts,Life sucks,Go and Die.人不为己天诛地灭.these are so true..

2009-05-26T05:45:00.000-07:00

Ouch..my ear still hurts..seen the doctor thrice le...this pain has been with me for 1 week..and i m sleepless for at least 4nights out of so many nights after i got this condition..hais..never mind..i just got a shock..this condition is known as otitis media..its in Greek i think..just checked it on wikipedia..hais,dont wanna say the contents here..my worst scenario..go op,burst eardrum to get rid of bacteria behind it...personally damn scared..really scared..no person to share the pain...nobody to ease the pain...hais,why dont i just die?less pain..nobody cares..i can just leave the world silently...without a word..and the world will still continue rotate...life goes on,just that there is 1 man less..XXbillions in the world?what differences does it make to have 1 less?

2009-05-16T06:57:00.000-07:00

Hais..My ear hurts alot..dont know why...my right ear..really hurts...but all this cant be compared to the pain in my heart..maybe my existence is no longer important to you anymore..is it?if you dont want me to be there...if you dont want me to be in your world..please tell me...i will..for your sake..really..whatever you say..so long its within my means..i will do it..really...

hahas..listening to Jay Chou music and a few others recently..not Jay Chou love songs..but Jay Chou Zhong Guo Feng...especially those from Yi Ran Fan Te Xi..anybody can find PLEASE TELL ME OK?I WANT IT BADLY!hahas..songs i recommend from other singers..
Claire Guo - Xia Yi Ge Tian Liang
Nicholas Teo (Zhang Dong Liang)- Hurt , Bei Ji Xing De Yan Lei
Gary Chaw ( Cao Ge) - Qi Chuang Ge
S.H.E- Re Dai Yu Lin

JAY CHOU- Xin Yu

橡樹的綠葉啊　白色的竹籬笆
好想告訴我的她　這裡像幅畫
去年的聖誕卡　鏡子裡的鬍渣
畫面開始沒有她　我還在裝傻
說好為我泡花茶　學習擺刀叉
學生宿舍空蕩蕩的家
守著電話　卻等不到她＊
＃心裡的雨傾盆而下也沾不濕她的髮
淚暈開明信片上的牽掛那傷心原來沒有時差
心裡的雨傾盆而下卻始終淋不到她
寒風經過院子裡的枝椏也冷卻了我手中的鮮花＃

2009-05-05T07:09:00.000-07:00

Realised I haven't post for a long time le...until Marriot and Bob was talking bout it today..at pizza hut...hahas..life has been ok for me recently..and ok means..average..not good,not bad...Well..start by talking bout CCA-wise..News from Mdm Yam saying that we seniors have to go back to rehearse for a performance on 22nd July..so we cant step down YET!.personally i felt a bit happy..it cleared the emptiness in me..for example..you have been regular for your CCA for 4 WHOLE YEARS!and you suddenly do not have to go..it does feel a bit weird..and when i spread the news around..i personally wasnt really happy with the responds,though i cant comment anything cause i SIMPLY DO NOT have the rights too..hais..never mind that..moving on to my personal life...hahas..have been in a daze at times..sometimes i just love to stare out of the window..hoping that she would just walk by to go back to her class..well..looking at her from a distance..i could see smiles on her face,and sometimes i would smile too...i am happy when she is happy..i've only truly cared about your existence when you're gone..and all i want to say is..I love you and i miss you.

2009-04-10T07:01:00.000-07:00

I keep reminding myself not to think of you..but i can't..It hurts to think of you..Why did things turn out this way..?Is what people say true?When they keep asking me those questions..when they tell me to concentrate on my studies and not think of you...i just can't do it...it makes me wanna cry when i want to..have i done something wrong?i seem to be unaccepted every where..every where i go i don't feel 100% happy..i'm just not perfect without you..its all my fault..everything's my fault..i'm sorry..if you ever come by and see this..and get upset..i'm sorry...i really miss you..i really do..do i have to be blamed for missing you too much?recently listening old classics by the 4 Heavenly Kings of HK..and some titles really suit what i feel right now...songs like..忘记你我做不到,忘情水 and 我是不是该安静走开..

2009-04-08T05:27:00.000-07:00

My life sucks..My life's a failure..I am a failure..maybe i should just give up on myself...

2009-04-07T07:18:00.000-07:00

Hais,i have come to a point where i don't know who i am..Its obvious to so many people that i need you in my life..and for these few weeks,you just aren't there..i'm very afraid of losing you..but can i be selfish? i want to be,but can i?i will do whatever you want me to do..really..i will xD. felt down this few weeks...i lost my voice recently..and just regain it back..that period of time...if not for some friends,i would really have cried..seriously..my voice is THAT IMPORTANT to me..like adora said..your voice is your most valuable asset right now..yes..the short adora..she is doing well i guess,just that she had pressure and stress..well..her choir is definitely better than ours...hais..realised her importance...to me and to the choir..she's a good friend.one that i can confide in..and to the choir,if she had not left the school.the pres post would definitely be hers..she is the person who can bring this choir to a silver or even gold..i can't...really...hahas..she can be a good leader..and friend to me..(hahas..we had a past,and because it ended,it is in the past now xD)haha..and i should thank bob too xD..that guy is the frigging ass that made fun of my voice in school everytime xD..hahas...anyway sports day...saw this frigging kuku,bloody ass noobtard..hais..go kp me..then kp him back..hahas xD

2009-03-29T06:14:00.000-07:00

1.Bob Leong (bob the builder xD)
2.Shaun Leong (sts?shaun the sheep)
3.Joshua Chin
4.Zack Tan
5.I shan (i shan i shan liang jing jing)
6.Yang Wenyi (wait till the SHEEPS come home)
7.Benjamin Goh
8.Lim Ni Ta (my ancestor)
9.Hwee Joo (my ancestor)
10.Marriot Fan (i think she needs to protect her hair yeah?)
11.Vivian Chan (my crazy junior)
12.xxxxxx (wanna noe wad tt 6 words are? Bu Neng Shuo De Mi Mi)
13.Tan Ying (almost forgotten i got a P there T.T)
14.Chun Kiat
15.Adora Loh (haven't seen her in ages..wonder if she's doing well xD)
16.Phaedra Ong
17.Jacelyn Pang
18.Gan Li Kiong
19.Hao Yi
20.Lup Seng
How did you meet 7?
Primary School

What would you do if 20 and 1 dated?
lols..both are guys leh..but i wanna see it happen xD

Have you ever seen 17 cry?
I think i have.

Would 4 and 16 make a good couple?
cannot be la..lols..zack is attached

Do you want to be 13's friend forever?
lols..she's my p..

Do you think 11 is attractive?
lols..she is crazy..attractive ar..?YES SHE IS SOOOO ATTRACTIVE

What’s 5’s favorite color?
how would i know?

When was the last time you talked to 9?
when i collected cookies,gonna ask her for history textbook le

What language does 8 speak?
English and Mandarin

Who is 13 going out with?
nobody?no one?

What grade is 16 in?
sec 4 la duh

Would you ever date 17?
nehs..i would suffer her pinchers..and i know she woulnt..

Where does 18 live?
hell?no la teachers estate

What is the best thing about 4?
going out with me to id5

What would you like to tell 10 right now?
1 person thought i like her..so i would tell yh..I LOVE YOU..NOT!lols..jk la..i would say..go cut your hair XD

What is the best thing about 20?
he plays chinese chess everyday?

Have you ever kissed 2?
no la..lols

What’s the best memory you have of 5?
YUI -.-

When’s the next time you’re going to see 7?
monday in school...

How is 7 different from 6?
sexes..1 does it 4 times a day the other 10..jkjk..one guy one girl la

Is 2 pretty?
of course..why would i wanna befriend him otherwise

What was your first impression of 15?
she's short?jk la..haha..she's a nice girl XD

How did you meet 3?
choir senior

Is 15 your best friend?
lols..dno how to answer that..haha..

Do you hate 12?fucked up quiz..you dumb or dumb..wont answer stupid questions

Have you seen 18 in the last month?
saw HER on friday

When was the last time you saw 16?
friday in school

Have you been to 5’s house?
nope

When’s the next time you’ll see 10?
NEVER EVER!she see me she would better run xD

Are you close to 11?
nope..i m her stranger dumb..how can u ever be close to a stranger

Have you been to the movies with 4?
lots of times..even today

Have you gotten in trouble with 8?
nope..i wouldnt wan a jab in the balls

Would you give 19 a hug?
nope..i wont..

When have you lied to 3?
forgotten?

Is 11 good at socializing?
Y.E.S..she jumps around like some mad girl..everyone likes it..?

Do you know a secret about 7?
OF COURSE I DO!!! HEE HEE HEE *SMIRKS*

Describe the relationship between 12 and 18.
i dnt know?haha..maybe friends?maybe good friends?classmates?lols..i dnt know xD

What’s the best thing about your friendship with 9?
lols..sec 2 choir camp..if she didnt ask me to come back to school i won't have realised something

What’s the worst thing about 1?
he's an indian

Have you ever had a crush on 12?
er..DUMB QUIZ

How long have you known 2?
4 years?

Have you ever been in a fight with 13?
i want to

Does 11 have a bf/gf?
vivian ar?she got loads of them...lots of bf gf and mistresses..which includes my daughter

Have you ever wanted to punch 1 in the face?
Y.E.S

Has 20 met your mother?
why would he?

How did you meet 11?
sec sch choir junior

Did you ever accidentally physically hurt 3?
Yeah....of course

Do you live close to 7?
u can say that again?

What is 19 ’s favorite food?
dont know leh?

What kind of car does 6 have?
i dont think she has

If you gave 14 $100, what would he/she spend it on?
porn books?guaranteed + chop.....

some questions really shocked me.....it'll shocked you too if you write 20 friends then do the question.I got shocked my some questions.....lolIF YOU DON'T CHEAT, YOU"LL FIND IT QUITE FUN.yeah....thats my commentbut it is long....so if you don't want to do also can

This is what i did on facebook..Pasted here by the request of .....Not including some real close friends though..haha..gonna do it again on my blog..which includes some close friend like Hau Yip xD..really miss rivaling with him man

2009-03-29T00:31:00.000-07:00

just read her blog..please dont let it be me..i cant accept this ending...please..let it NOT be me.after all thats happened,if its gonna end like that...i seriously cant accept..no...no..it wont happen..right?just tell me it wouldnt end...

Life Sucks

2009-03-26T06:13:00.000-07:00

Hais..i hate staying home nowadays...never had one day of peace..hais..parents keep scolding my brother..its not that i care or what but i m always dragged into it.hais.so what if i m the older brother.My brother takes me as a role model yeah?so what?and he doesnt treat me as a role model..he will just go "y kor kor can i cant?"and he never ever gave me that little bit of respect..i'm tired of all this things..STOP talking to me bout me being the older one and i have the responsibility to guide my brother..please...I'm very upset and down le..STOP frigging add to my troubles..STOP putting add more pressure.Guiding the younger ones eh?Being your son eh..I've always been worrying bout your,when something is wrong i feel worried and upset..feeling guilty too..but what bout your?have your really sat down to talk to me bout my problems?I'm a choir VP,i was proud of myself at first to be one..i wanted to tell your this..but i decided against it..my mum can tell me..being second in rank in choir so what?and my dad told me although i wanted to help i ended up adding more problems instead..maybe i really didnt do things right,but can your give me some encouragement instead?being an SL and VP so long le..i dont even care bout these le..its just a name only..it doesnt mean anything to your hearts..your just care bout my studies...and your only care bout results nia..during these 3 months...which one of you actually tell me i can do it and actually encouraged me?your just keep saying i really gotta jiayou or i will make it to the ITE..hais..before leaving for JEP last year,i got so pissed at your..but did your realise?i dont wanna talk to your face to face now le..it will make us both upset,disappointed and angry nia...After today,the speaker for "Discovering the Champion in You" said,look at one's strong points,and instead of saying the YOU-Sentences,use the I-Sentences..but i dont think it will work for us..hais..My Whole World is meaningless the moment i was born..I finally knew what i wanted.But do your know what is it that your son wants?Your think that giving me the most pocket money makes your the best parents?i dont think so..i had never receive the love from your...Theres so many memories of me scolded by your..And there's one that i can still remember clearly..it happened in P3..i really cant stand it anymore...i need to get this off my chest..seriously..and to think your still wanted my company on Sundays..Trainings for chin up?Jogging as a family?save me all this bullshit...
i would rather have the company of her,or if not my friends,but i dont need your

2009-03-22T06:23:00.000-07:00

Hey..i miss you loads..i haven't seen you for a week,haven't talked to you for a week.i really miss you...like i said..i've waited,and is still waiting..i will always be waiting..on standby mode..if you need me i will be there...if you need someone to dry your tears,i am willing to.if you need someone to talk to,i am also willing to.you need me,just tell me yea?
ok..i would like to talk bout 2 other things..Choir and JEP.haha..let's start with the choir..hais..the morale and the attitude of choir is very bad now..i finally gotta know how benjamin lee felt 2 years ago.and in fact..benjamin was more tired than what i am feeling now.he was most of the time alone,and unlike me,he doesnt have his VP's help..well..he got my respect..now we have to try and raise the choir's morale..but to do that we need time,and that's what we are lacking now..hais..it will be difficult,but we will try.
JEP!man i missed it man..i was tagging some people in photos in facebook and when i commented on some of my own,ni ta commented too..bout the time where we played soccer in Mukaihara Junior High,Taking photos with Mr Chen at the Kagamino farewell party and at DisneySEA..those times are one of my happiest moments without my family..seriously..Unfortunately the hands of the clock cant be turned back,and this will remain in my memories forever.We really gotta treasure everything we have now..(i would treasure your being here too,or i will regret it in the future)..
Hahas..4 years in MF is up soon.i m 3/4 year away from leaving mayflower..if there's thing i miss in MF,it would be Bob,Shaun,Lup,you and my Vox Humana Choir (seniors too)..I love you guys .. xD Thanks for giving your patience and thanks for forgiving me everytime i quarreled with your..Thanks Choir committee, i know i am very slack and whatsoever but thanks for the memories..and 2 other people who contributed to my growth is Ms Ng and Mr Chen..thanks too..anyway this post should be posted in October..when i leave MF but i think i will just post now..hahas..also,if your dont have anything nice to comment.don't comment..one of what ms ng says to me when i used lots of vulgarities in sec 1 and i can still remember it xD

2009-03-18T03:39:00.000-07:00

Feeling horrible now...my lips now look fucking disgusting..and i'm very pissed with Garena players..I'm pissed,upset and i look down on myself..the skin on my lips are peeling off..and makes it looks fucking disgusting..I so wanna throw a temper..I so wanna tell all this to anybody..I am so fucking pissed,angry and upset with life...I so miss you...I hope you can come online very soon...These few days without you suck..No one can fill the gap in my heart except you..

I've waited,and am still waiting patiently

2009-03-06T06:52:00.000-08:00

here's a stupid thing that happened today.. 10.00pm AMK HUB Bus Terminal Me and joshua was walking to the bus stop opposite hub.when i reached the line for the 169,166 and 262 one,someone tapped my shoulder when i was talking to joshua bout dota cause we just went lan..i turned around,and this person asked,"Wo De Hua Wen Gong Ke Ne?"I GOT SHOCKED~! WHAT THE HELL IS BIAN TAI LAO SHI DOING HERE?10PM ALSO CAN FIND ME ASK HOMEWORK?!WTF?!
Hais..my week's terrible..it started off with an ok but ended suckishly..history class..i had the chance to sit beside her..but i actuallly didnt..i dont know if she would be disappointed in me not..hais..i m such a pimp and a coward that sucks so fucking much that i m better off dead..hais..i m sorry..anyway i still wanna say...there's only you in my heart..xD anyway...am so pissed by my fucked up juniors..one took my file,wanted to run away but is so fucking fat and couldnt run.i thus tried to choke him and 2 others juniors saw it and said "Wa..bully ar?sl somemore.."cb la knn..u think i wanna be sl ar?i m fucking sicked and tired of being thrown like a fucked up ball..if being an sl = being a fucked up ball and cannot retaliate,i m sorry i dn wanna be one...Sometimes i feel very down.On who's shoulder can i lean on?and on who's embrace can i lie in?

2009-02-20T06:33:00.000-08:00

My results suck..My running sucks..I suck..Everything sucks without you now..When you are upset i am not there..Like after supps..i didn't do anything..I really can't do it..why am i so useless..i was thinking bout all this when i was coming back..you are the only person who can brighten up my life..cause you are my life..my world revolves around you..for that..i'm gonna work hard..cause for one day..i know i can do it

2009-02-18T04:18:00.001-08:00

Decided to post again...probably about her again..well..She's 1 person that i will definitely end up with..maybe i want to but it might just be my wishful thinking..or maybe there's a huge gap in between us..i want to give up..but can i?hais..don't want think about it le..let nature take its course..1 song to share XD 最长的电影..currently my favourite song..and maybe 我不配 suits what i feel bout you now..kk..end of her..now just wanna share some plans after O's..probably i wanna travel.. xD..maybe going JEP again..hahas..then come back go other country with bob that group..then see if got class chalet or class overseas outing not xD hahas..then come back maybe work and go back help the choir xD will not ps my current juniors... xD

2009-02-06T06:33:00.000-08:00

Mans..i hope you have never stepped out of my life..ever since then,msn and computer is all boring to me..you are the main reason i wanted to on my com..i'm always logging on aimlessly now..we walk past each other without talking.i hate myself for that..T.T hais..i miss the times we talked..

i hope you have never left me,
i can put up with anything for your sake
i wanna hold your hand forever

2009-01-24T06:07:00.000-08:00

There is lots of things i did today..going to lan in the early afternoon with Bob they all,then at bout 3.30 i left for Eugene's house...to play soccer..played till bout 6..then went home..i did enjoy myself..but i m still feeling down..all these things i did today..isnt as fun as talking to you..we've talked for so many days..it really is different when you are not around..i really want you to come online..i've not cherished the time we chatted..and now..its a bit late to regret,though we can still talk on other days..but i would remember today..cause its the day that i didn't talk to you..i miss you..please come online..it is really painful when you are not there...

2009-01-17T06:59:00.000-08:00

Some people told me not to post emo stuffs,so i shouldn't.well,i think i will be posting bout Japan..haha..well..In Mukaihara High,there is this english teacher called Ms Shioban.Heard tt she was bringing Benedict,Li kiong and friends to the toilet.then she asked them."Are the toilets in Singapore on the ground?".Benedict was like saying "nono,they are on the ceiling,maybe on the hills."then the teacher was like,whatever..then the next day,she din come to school.they asked why.then they said,"she must be still shocked by the fact that the toilets in singapore are on the ceiling".haha..well..i miss japan and the JEP people..man..i wish that time can turn back,but its impossible.so i should cherish wadever i have now so as to not regret..haha.

2009-01-14T04:31:00.000-08:00

I feel my back against the wall,i'm forced back till i can't take another step back.i don't want to do anything le.can anyone help me?i m pressurised,i really don't know what to do and do what,i just feel i m a failure.i've failed over and over again..so tired of failing stuffs..i don't know who i can turn to..i miss the time..where i walked alone in Asakusa street alone for that 5 minutes..

2009-01-12T03:50:00.000-08:00

说好的幸福呢-周杰伦
你的回话凌乱着
在这个时刻
我想起喷泉旁的白鸽,甜蜜散落了
情绪莫名的拉扯,我还爱你呢
而你断断续续唱着歌,假作没事了
时间过了,走了,爱情面临选择
你冷了,倦了,我哭了
离开时的不快乐,你用卡片手写着,有些爱只给到这真的痛了
怎么了你累了说好的幸福呢我懂了不说了爱淡了梦远了
开心与不开心一一细数着你再不舍那些爱过的感觉都太深刻我都还记得
你不等了说好的幸福呢我错了泪干了放手了后悔了
只是回忆的音乐盒还旋转着要怎么停呢
Thats basically my feeling for now,its a bit disappointing,but i don't blame anyone,seriously.I don't want anyone and anybody to interfere or whatsoever.just let me be..just leave me alone..some might say Time heal all wounds,but time is currently the poison i'm taking now.well,this post isn't anything to make anyone to make a decision.its just what i'm feeling now

2009-01-06T04:42:00.000-08:00

Had choir today. Quite a tiring day but quite fruitful..lols..hahas..lost my voice cause i slept uber late at 2am last night..was damn stupid la..and damn 杯弓蛇影..WTF i m uber tired la..damns..this is what happen...All should i hate beetles..its a phobia..lols..DAMN FUCK..was trying to sleep last night..thn i heard the sound of a beetle which is when it hits something las..lols..was so freaked out that i stood wide awake...went out wanna ask my father to check but then dnt wanna wake him up..so stood awake until 2 when i finally decided to get a torch and check cause my room the light spoil..lols...shone around and was wondering where is the beetle..then i heard the sound again,flashed it in the direction...!

Turns out to a straw wrapper..and i was like O.O ! LOST MY SLEEP FOR 4 FUCKING HOURS BECAUSE OF THAT!!FUCK FUCK FUCK

2009-01-02T06:13:00.000-08:00

Today is the start of school...lols..for fcuking reasons i got caught for my hair...CB la...KP..lols..then go back class...BOB BECOME SECRETARY!!HAHA!!! then recess...LOLS!!! saw 3 people...vivian,edelweiss and her crazy fren devilka..lols..stupid people..hah...THEN Mother Tongue KENA SCOLDED FOR NO REASON! -.-" then meeting with new teachers..they are ok la..lols..haha..
END OF POST

2008-12-30T03:52:00.000-08:00

Finally posting bout japan...hahas..well..i wont post very very long cause i SIMPLY DONT HAVE THE PATIENCE TO.hahas..well...a short description on the 14 days...MIGHT or might not post in details the next time i post...
DAY 1 , 9 Dec 2008 : Changi Airport-Kansai Airport
hahas...bob came to my house to have dinner and he eventually send me off with my family,thanks bob.talked to someone (not ni ta) before leaving.
DAY 2 , 10 Dec 2008 : Kansai Airport - Hiroshima
after arriving at kansai,i missed my parents and bob,and her (not the "someone"in the previous day) too.i start doing my leader post.it was horrible at first.ha...took shinkansen to hiroshima,akitakata,stayed at Youth Outdoor Adventures Centre..welcome ceremony at night.haha...then when we went back to YOAC me and ni ta gambled...he lost his drink XD.me and Eugene had our 1st sex video
DAY 3 , 11 Dec 2008 : Hiroshima,Akitakata (class immersion+home stay)
stayed till lunch at YOAC thn went to mukaihara junior high.went to grade 1 english class,then went to Club activities.SOCCER!me,donald,ni ta,ben,li kiong,you yue and eugene played.haha...me,ni ta,donald and ben's group won 7-6!i sweat for a first time...ni ta wore my shoe and i wore the loaned shoe.(so small!my toes hurt after the game).me and ben went to our host's house..the Josha family.we had dinner WITH VEGES!and then went to our room (ok,it wasnt a room,its like we had 1 whole house to ourselves..we entertained ourself with music XD.(we includes me,ben,the father and mother)
DAY 4 , 12 Dec 2008 : Hiroshima,Akitakata,Mukaihara (class immersion + kagayaki +home stay night 2)
went for Moral Education,Social Studies (more like our sg's humanities),PE!and English.the lessons are boring and i only enjoyed PE!..haha..did i say my hair was like wild grass?ask ni ta they all how i look like.i didnt comb my hair.Pe was badminton,it was fun..just that i got hit in the head by a japanese girl,with a badminton racket.after english was lunch and then we went to kagayaki (old folks home).then we went for a Welcome ceremony at Mukaihara Junior High.HAH!AFTER TT!SOCCER AGAIN! Singapore students + 2 Jap students vs Jap students...WE WON! 4-1!this time i was wearing my shoe.haha..then went back to host family.haha...I LOVED THE NIGHT!we played table tennis...haha..Laughter filled the place that night...haha..i miss them now..
DAY 5 , 13 Dec 2008 : Hiroshima - Miyajima - Hiroshima - Hachebore Chante Hotel
we left the host families and we are back with our friends who were at yoshida...haha...my hair as usual was like grass...did i say ben is super hard to wake?well..we visited Miyajima island...Shrines and i walked around with Ni Ta's group.i got myself an ice cream XD.also tried the maple pancakes!it was nice...then visited A Bomb Dome,the site where Little Boy (the atomic bomb) landed.then we went to Hachebore Chante...had a little quarrel with Zack
DAY 6 , 14 Dec 2008 : Hiroshima - Shin Osaka- Shin Osaka Youth Hostel
We finally left Hiroshima for Shin Osaka.We went to the Youth Hostel and then went to NARA's Deer park.haha..deers again...lols...deers are real horny animals...1 deer was having sex with another deer with its nose...OMG!haha...then went back to SOYH and had dinner...had rehearsal after dinner...then onsen...was one of the last batch to shower...room mates: Donald,Ni Ta,Zack,Calvin,Eugene
DAY 7 , 15 Dec 2008 : Shin Osaka - Osaka Universal Studios
lols...my mood was a bit down as i was reminded of what the "someone" on my post of the first day said to me..we then go on the Hollywood Dream and my mood changed for the better...thanks to Ni Ta and Zack...hahas...we also saw iggy there...then went to this CURRY RICE SHOP!!MY GOD!!!I LOVE IT!OISHI!haha..had 2 servings.treated ni ta to one..after lunch was Shrek 4D (a waste of my time),Spiderman!a stimulation...sadly..if only it was a rollercoaster...THEN!JURASSIC PARK!WATER RIDE! AND IT WAS FREEZING!haha..then went back to SOYH.had some rehearsal,which dint went really well...then onsen!SHIN JI RU LIVE SECTIONALS!!!haha..then used com a while and slept.
DAY 8 , 16 Dec 2008 : Shin Osaka - Himeji - Kobe - Shin Osaka
hah..visited Himeji Castle..took photo and left -.-..then went to Kobe Earthquake Museum...i really felt a bit sad for them..cause it basically destroyed the whole Kobe...well..played some games there,like reversi and then went back to SOYH..SAW AN FD Spirit,took a picture of it!YAMAN!Blue one!Onsen again...haha...i think we pissed zack off..hais..sorraye!gomenasai!then called bob and my family..
DAY 9 , 17 Dec 2008 : Shin Osaka - Okayama - Kagamino
we travelled the whole day and went to another Nursing Home to perform...then we went to Kagamino Welcome Ceremony.hahas,met my host and the daughter...performed for them...sounded quite ok!hahas..except for Singapore Medley.then!we went to our host's house to have dinner..we met the father and we had dinner.we then showered and went to bed...ZACK!GODNESS SAKE!I DNT WANNA HEAR YUI SONG ESPECIALLY WHEN I M UBER TIRED!lols..haa...
DAY 10 , 18 Dec 2008 : Okayama, Kagamino - Class immersion
haha...went to school again today..haha..Sohran Dance and Ink Painting..lols..i must be dancing like a weirdo or else the people behind won't be laughing at me...lols...ink painting...i suck at art..then went Uenoji temple...calligraphy and meditation...lols..then go fairy forest glass museum..i got 2 cups and a uranium necklace.then went back and we were picked up by our hosts and went back home for dinner..BARBECUE!bathe and slept...
DAY 11 , 19 Dec 2008 : Okayama , Kagamino - Travelling Performance
woke up...gathered at Okutsu Junior High...performed in a bathrobe...ni ta also..then went to Kamisaibara.THEY RENTED A CONCERT HALL JUST FOR US!so kind...then performed and went for lunch...then go tomi..the way to tomi resembles Shomaru Pass..lols..performed and went to REAL ONSEN AT NOTORO!haha...we sang national anthem,school song and Shinjiru in onsen...then went back to Kagamino Town Hall...sorry to keep host waiting...hah...WE WENT TO HAVE RAMEN!!!SO NICE LA!went back and yuuki,bob's host came to visit..so we had people to talk to and we slept by 10...
DAY 12 , 20 Dec 2008 : Okayama , Kagamino ,DAY OUT WITH HOST
woke up at 10.30...had breakfast and when to bowling...saw ken and ben thr...haha..then papa,the father went home after bowling...we went to a local udon shop and ate thr..then went shopping XD...went arcade..haha..ate baskin robbins ice cream xD..then went to the closing ceremony...haha..me and ni ta was playing gays and sissies throughout..haha..then went back after dinner..
DAY 13 , 21 Dec 2008 : Okayama - Tokyo - Iidabashi Tokyo Hostel
we left our hosts again...went to Okayama Station and Shinkansened to Tokyo..i was bitching with the girls in the train..haha..Whole day travelling...reached at bout 8++-9.ate our dinner fast and onsened..shinjirued a bit.sleep
DAY 14 , 22 Dec 2008 : Tokyo - Disneysea - TH
WENT TO PLAY AGAIN..went to the famous Tower Of Terror...lols..not as scary as imagined..then went to eat..then go Indiana Jones..lols..ken was a joker..indiana was saying smething in jap and ken shouted...WAKARIMASEN...lols..then went to RAGING SPIRITS..lols..boring la..tt stupid bernice earned an ice cream just like tt..lols..later start raining...we went into a shelter and ate...me and ni ta went around looking for people..then later i lost tan ying's glove..then rush back and look for it..found it though...luckily...later..when we going back,i was told eugene went to the dancers group..so i said lots of hurtful stuff,then i went to read my inbox...realised i havent read my dad's message...i was so on the brink to tears...but i kept it..when we reached the hostel, eugene wasnt thr...i was so upset and disappointed that i really cried...i failed as a leader,a son and a VP..later Ni Ta got me going again...but still in shock mode..had a meeting later regarding the case...i went to the toilet and i thought of the conversation between me and my pri sch teacher also my god bro.I talked to him regarding the choir and also said i feel down that i cant handle the choir.he said whatever i do,he will support me and said he had faith in me...i managed to stand up after that.quoted from Initial D "Everyone will come to face a wall in any point of time.If a person come to a wall he cant overcome,he is at his very best and cannot improve anymore".well...i 've overcame it.went to sleep at bout 1am
DAY 15: Tokyo - Asakusa - Ueno - Tokyo
went on a shopping spree today..went arcade again too...hahas...lols...went with Celia's group...ate ice cream too..lols...nothing to say much.did a lot of meetings at night...haha...then slept.
DAY 16: Tokyo Narita - Changi Airport
woke up early...rush all the way to Narita..haha...its like about 10.30 and i was thinking.going back to sg in like 7 hrs..haha...flight time boring...then when we were back in sg...i saw my parents again...i saw bob too...i miss them...

However,the person i miss and wanna see so much isn't there.It hurts me so much.Could it be that you are so important to me?

2008-12-26T06:19:00.000-08:00

first quiz
1) What have you been doing recently?
-just came back frm japan doing a stupid orientation in school
2) Do you ever turn your cellphone off?
-duh...who doesn't.no batt also turn off
3) What happened at 10am today?
-er...in school doing some dumb fuck
4) When did you last cry?
-japan...when eugene went missing
5) Believe in fate/destiny?
-yup
6) What do you want in your life right now?
-her
7) Do you carry an umbrella when it rains or put up your hood?
-umbrella duh..
8) What's your favourite thing to do on your bed?
-obvious rite?sleep la
9) What bottoms are you wearing now?
-pants
10) What is the nicest thing in your inbox?
-my dads message whn i m in japan asking how i am
11) Do you tend to make your relationship complicated?
-no la..who will?
12) Are you wearing anything borrowed from anyone?
-underwear?joking
13) What is the last movie you saw?
-er... Initial D
14) What are you proud of?
-don't know lehs
15) What does your oldest text in your inbox say?
'you got receive?what is e throttle?' by joshua
16) What was the last song you sang out loud?
Famous Last Words - My Chemical Romance
17) Do you have any nicknames?
yup
18) What does your newest text says?
Benedict's
19) What time did you went to bed last night?
12.30am
20) Are you currently happy?
no
21) Who gives you the best advice?
my dad
22) Do you eat whipped cream straight from the can?
siao..of course not
23) Who did you talk on the phone last night?
joshua
24) Is something bugging you now?
yup...
25) Who was the last person who made you laugh?
er..was it Ni Ta or Eugene
second quiz
1) Single, attached or crushing?
crushing
2) Are you happy with who you are?
nope
3) When you meet the right person, do you fall fast?
er...through communication
4) Have you ever had your heart broken?
yup
5) Do you believe that there are certain circumstances where cheating is okay?
i cheat often
6) Would you ever take someone back if they cheated on you?
depends
7) Have you talked about marriage with another person?
yup
8) Do you want children?
yup
9) How many children do you want?
enough to make a soccer team?jkjk..1 is ok.2 is fine.3 is a big trouble
10) Would you consider adoption?
nope
12) Do you enjoy playing hard to get?
nope
13) Be honest, do you play the "game" when you are dating?
wad game?
14) Do you believe in love at first sight?
yup
15) Are you romantic?
dont think so
16) Do you believe you can change someone?
ni ta?how to change him...only his girl can
17) If you could marry anywhere, and money is not an obligation where would it be?
er...never thought that far
18) Do you have feelings for someone right now?
Ni Ta?no..i'm not gay...er...for a girl yup
19) Have you ever wished you could have someone but you couldn't?
NI TA AGAIN?! er...nope..i m not gay..for a girl yup
20) Have you broken a heart?
how would i noe?its not my heart
21) Would you ever fight somebody over your significant other?
wtf?! fight myself?
22) What would you say about your last ex?
I'm sorry...

2008-12-25T04:37:00.000-08:00

a) Answer the questions below, do a Google Image Search with your answer,take a picture from the first page of results, do it with minimal words of explanation
.b) Tag someone to do the same once you've finished answering every question

1) The age you'll be on your next birthday
16
2) A place you'll like to travel to
Japan- Gunma Prefecture- Mount Akina (Mount Haruna)
3) Your favourite place
AMK HUB
4) Your favourite food(s)
Ice Cream
5) Your favourtie pet(s)

rabbit
6) Your favourite colour combination
Black and White
7) Your favourite piece of clothing
New Balance Shoes
8) Your all time favourite song
Jay Chou - Hei Se You Mo
9) Your favourite TV show (currently)
-
10) The town in which you live
Singapore
11) Your screenname/nickname
-
12) Your first job
-
13) Your dream job
Racer
14) A bad habit you have
Cant hear people properly
15) Your worst fear
BEETLES
16) The one thing you'd like to do before you die
Get a wife
17) The first thing you'll buy if you get $1 000 000
MY AE86 and my FD3S

2008-12-05T02:11:00.000-08:00

Hais..i m very pissed and sick and tired of everything single piece of fuck..everything be it home or wad...i m seriously pissed...if you all dont wanna help,dont add on to the trouble...i m gonna explode very soon...at that time,i will not be who i really am..but if there is some things that wun piss me off,it would be about her..or it would be about Jay Chou

2008-11-30T05:13:00.000-08:00

Hais..i miss your kiddy voice...how i wish u will always be my side...but i know very well its not gonna happen...we are 2 different people...i will always think of play and you of study...i dont wanna change and you won't too...we wont be together...so i will try to put more gap between us so that i dont think of u too much...right now i just wanna get everything in choir going right...do what i m supposed to do...and forget you

2008-11-28T06:41:00.001-08:00

sian...i want to be free...but i got even restricted further...i hate this world...i hate myself...i hate being controlled...if i get controlled,its just tt i dn wanna ruin anything i build up...its not worth it...i dno wad i wan now...maybe it is always best to stay lonely...i dn wan anybody by my side...it hurts when you need a someone but he/she isnt by ur side...hais...its saddening...well...saw her today...she is definitely different when i was in sec 1...she changed...i haven't talked to her directly for 2 years le...i only remembered vividly that she asked me not to talk to her for a year and i did...but 2 years past so quickly...hais...i really miss her...

2008-11-28T04:32:00.000-08:00

Sian..today stayed back to help ms ng...quite ok la...WOW! 1 DAY WITHOUT MY BRO IS 10 YEARS OF HAPPINESS!!!haha...thats the good part...

2008-11-21T05:09:00.000-08:00

Dots...just backed from camp...haha..group 1 got first...my group...Camp din go as bad as i expected...Lots of things went wrong but din caused any real big problems...just the flow of events...Lets start from Day 1..Icebreakers quite ok,Choir was bad,Lunch was the best meal of all..(chicken rice),Obstacle course cancelled for sectionals.Choir was a bit better...Station Games,just the flow of the games was bad...haha...then shower,then dinner...watch movie...WOW!!!NC16!!!then Blind man trail then sleep...Camp com has meeting until 6am..
Rise and Shine..Camp com wake up late..Morning Ex...then Breakfast...thn Obstacle Course...quite fun la...Choir...much better...Lunch was ok..then me and zack set off for Amazing Race...We finished Station 1 then follow group 2 to Station 2 bukit batok...then we head for science centre with group 3..then left for raffles city...me walked with Group 1 to city hall..haha...then waited for group 4 then went back school...Well...i became sick and i was very grateful...to joshua for taking care of me..haha...then i got better then go for choir then limelight then go supper and sleep...Camp com meeting till 4am...
Day 3 woke up at 7 go wake the guys...had breakfast then watch movie...then play wacko..haha...then the debrief and sorts then went home...me slept from 3pm - 9pm XD

2008-11-13T18:48:00.000-08:00

Well...i've decided to cheer up again...thanks to 4 people...well,3 friends and 1 other person...who is the other person?Jay Chou lor...well...thanks to his song Dao Xiang...i feel that i should cheer up...
对这个世界如果你有太多的抱怨
跌倒了就不敢继续往前走
为什么人要这么的脆弱堕落
请你打开电视看看多少人为生命在努力勇敢的走下去
我们是不是该知足
珍惜一切就算没有拥有
.....
不要这么容易就想放弃
就像我说的
追不到的梦想换个梦不就得了
为自己的人生鲜艳上色
先把爱涂上喜欢的颜色
笑一个吧功成名就不是目的
让自己快乐快乐这才叫做意义
....
the other 3 are Vivian,Tan Ying and Phaedra...i dont know if your really mean it or not...but i seriously appreciated your being there...Thanks...now...off to go to meet joshua.. XD

2008-11-13T06:08:00.000-08:00

2nd time i posted...my mood isnt that great now...i cried...i broke down...i cant bear the pain...

2008-11-13T05:46:00.000-08:00

Throughout this whole day...I've been in the slumps...nothing is going exactly right...everythings wrong...sians...from the start of the day to the end...damn...i seriously feel like crying...

2008-11-12T03:33:00.000-08:00

Lol..i seldom have this urge to update but today is a very good day to post...haha,i started the fun day by meeting Joshua at amk hub at 2.30....haha...when i reached there i dont know where is he so i called him...well...they give this shit bout saying not available or stuff...thus...i went round looking for him...then a minute later,he called...this is the moment we saw each other..lols...he say he called me earlier on but same thing happen..lols...we called each other at the same time...lols..we went to singtel...look at handphone again...I DONT CARE!I WANT MY N85!!!EVEN IF IT BEATS I SPEND LESS IN JAPAN!!!lols...then we go arcade...haha...YAMAN!!!AFTER A FEW TRIES!!!I BEAT MY RECORD IN AKINA!!!3.00.8xx...XD...then joshua was like smirking already...keep asking me why i so happy...lols...then we go lan....again...good speed..lols...we played dota..$5.50 each...but i decided to treat him since i so happy...XD...then we go take 262 home...he go home i go meet nic and mahendran...
dots...never so happy before...played BASKETBALL IN THE RAIN!!!XP...play ABC...those air ball de do 5 pumpings...haha...then was damn wet le...then we start cracking jokes...saying it would be so much better for a white shirt girl to be playing with us...lols...(all the sick jokes)...then after that we wait for nic uncle come fetch us and bring us home...haha...nic uncle the ENGLISH SO FUNNY!!lols...nic uncle say nic not guai dont like listen to advices...say he finished coughing go play in the rain again...then say call his father who's overseas...haha...lols...then mahendran coughed...then nic uncle said...SEE...COUGH ALREADY...then nic say..:"lol...indian more easy cough"...i started laughing with mahendran le...then his uncle said...what?u think indian made of pancake ar?i don't care...i gonna call your father and tell him...you are gonna be grounded...i cut your allowance...then me and mahendran laughed like mad le..lols...was laughing throughout the way home...haha...
TODAY IS THE MOST HAPPIEST DAY!!!
THANKS JOSH,NIC and MAHENDRAN!!!

2008-11-10T03:48:00.000-08:00

Finally understood why i played initial d le...finally understood my pursuit to get better...Well...to begin first...i was playing inital D with this guy called Dlice (Subaru Impreza WRX GC8V Lvl 30.)not to show off but my skills are on par with him...Why talk bout him?cause he is the guy who used to own me...and he is the only guy in initial d arcade world whom i really respect...ran into him yesterday and today...today we had our first conver...Then i played with this guy(dif guy).He uses the RX-7 Spirit (dots...RX-7 so popular XP) Shomaru and Tsuchisaka...i won once and 2nd one he let me win...to be truthful i shouldnt win any...i realised something in the meantime...Zack is right...i am too arrogant le...so arrogant that i should not be counted a pro...well...i should start learning to respect my opponents...ya...thats the end of initiald ...back to my life...well...spent more than 20 dollars in this 2 days...me and Joshua went to lan for this 3 days...haha...well...we went searching for our new phones today...we wanted N85 or N81...but its a bit too ex...thn we went lan...then go home...well...in fact...i start hating to go home...especially now...My parents just love to break promises...they said if i get good results thn get me a phone...thn now say why do i need a good phone (N85)...well...my thoughts are that if you cant honour your promises...damn...using a good phone is just bullshit....its just that they dont wanna buy...sianz...damn fucked up now...ending here le

2008-11-06T03:36:00.001-08:00

I didn't enjoyed my trip as supposed...well...lots of things went wrong...some know that i got scolded on the first day...i was leaning on the railing...a toddler girl came and she tripped and fall...her dad scolded me for not letting her hold the railings...theres so much factors that i wasn't in the wrong...the worst thing was...that ass sounded very like mr fong...his accent and stuffs...(it wasnt mr fong though)...reminded me of the past...its very mind bothering...i feel like i'm in a void....a world of nothingness....guess its meant to be that way...well...up next i think i shall get the choir camp ready...i did quite a lot of planning...back to malaysia...well,initial d at genting sucks...i won every match except 1...whereby this malay blocked me like what...and ya...if possible...zack...go drive uphill and downhill of genting when you get a car...theres lots of curves...(just joking..if u want to thn go lor...dnt come back with a wrecked car)...down at malacca...things are more ok...but my mood's still down...didn't feel good throughout the whole trip...it sucks....its more like i went alone...just that during shopping and eating,theres my parents...i m like playing all by myself throughout the trip...i m still lonely

2008-11-01T07:26:00.000-07:00

Name 20 people(no specific order)
1.Bob
2.Zack
3.Shaun
4.CK
5.Lup Seng
6.Li Kiong
7.Wen Yi
8.Ying Han
9.Phaedra
10.Jacelyn
11.Hau Yip
12.MRC
13.Lindy
14.Yi Jin
15.Joshua Chin
16.You Yue
17.Vivian
18.Ophelia
19.Kang Wei
20.Jordy
1.How did you meet 14 (yi jin)?
Sec Sch,My choir junior
2.What would you do if you never meet 1 (bob)?
lol...like i said,no bob no fun.
3.What if 9 and 20 date each other (phaedra,jordy)?
They've never met
4.Will 6 and 17 date each other (li kiong.vivian)?
I would love to see that
5.Describe no. 3 (shaun).
one of my best friend...cheerful
6.Is 8 attractive (ying han)?
she is quite ok with her specs but without she looks a bit weird
7.Describe no. 7 (wenyi).
wenyi ar...one of my best friend among the opposite sex,well...is cheerful,just that she hides her real feelings from others
8.Do you know any family members of no. 12 (MRC)?
Not really
9.What if 18 confesses he/she likes you (Ophelia) ?
impossible
10.What language does 15 speak(Joshua Chin)?
English,real funny Chinese and Hokkien
11.Who's going out with 9 (Phaedra)?
dont know.
12.How old is 16(You Yue)?
er...turning 16 tomorrow
13.When did you last speak to 13(Lindy)?
like now?
14.Who is 2 favourite singer (Zack)?
haha...like me lor..Jay Chou
15.Would you ever date with 4(CK)?
already dating
16.Will you ever date with 1(Bob)?
already dating
17.Is 19 single(Xiao Kang)?
duh...
18.What's 10's last name(Jacelyn)?
Xue Wei
19.School of 3(Shaun)?
MFSS
20.Where does 6 live(Li Kiong)?
Teachers Estate
21.What is your favourite thing of 5(Lup Seng)?
His dog...called Zhou Jie Lun
22.Have you seen 11 naked(Hau Yip)?
We were separated...
Next 5 people to do this: Zack,Joshua Chin,Ying Han,Shaun and CK

2008-11-01T07:23:00.000-07:00

too many ask me le...cannot...k la...clarify the whole matter...i m not leaving kaes??LOLS...i m just going to malaysia for 4 D 3 N nias...coming back on the 7th...k?

2008-10-31T03:34:00.001-07:00

Well...just found this out from my parents recently...I won't be going to Japan with Zack and the rest le...won't be talking to you people anymore le...Won't be staying on as choir VP le...CAUSE, i will be leaving for Australia on the 3rd...migrating there...so...there will be people i miss...and ya...please don't spread anything around...cause i dont really want people to know...i just wanna leave this place a lonely person...so,good bye guys...there is still a secret untold...and i think i will say it before i leave...about....anyway i've known most of ur for 3 years...and i will bring the memories with me along...thanks for all people

2008-10-30T06:10:00.000-07:00

today's a bit sucky...i was forcing myself to smile the whole day...in fact...when i went to the arcade during lunch break of the meeting i met a group of people...well...dont have to say out,1 person among them asked that i alone go arcade fun mehss?lols..i have to agree with it now...it is boring,sucks and it fcks...damn..lost to damn bloody fuckers...seriously damn pissed...i miss bob...i feel like i m left alone to fend for myself...lols...compared to being with bob,phaedra they all,its so much more fun...Joshua, you yue and zack too...a pity they came a bit late...had comm meeting till 5.30..its ok la...just that i m still feeling real sore and down...and ya to confirm...zack,i was just kidding when i cried while singing qiao ke shu shu...haha...diaos..and ya,it sucks when you are the only guy arnd,you stare into blank air and emo thr...and listen Jay songs to emo better,lols..

2008-10-28T07:14:00.000-07:00

lols..."SOME PEOPLE" suggests me to post...lols...no real good events la...er...just that today my birthday,thn late for school...haha...chinese is boring...maths..lols...was totally playing lahs...haha...we talking bout taking 草原快车 to find the "Grassman" Bob...haha...in malaysia what he...haha...thn no real thing la...received a card from 3D...Thanks!!!seriouslyt Bu Xi Guan people wishing me happy birthday...especially Lim Yen and weiling...haha...was walking out of the school when they shout from upstairs...haha...lols...then basketball...zzz...boring la...its pure boring...then later go home use com lor...haha...maybe Friday mum bringing me get New Balance shoes and Ellesse watch!!haha...the end lor...

2008-10-21T05:49:00.000-07:00

I felt lonely today...during and after choir...as i was walking alone to the bus stop i felt like just standing there as time passed...i've made friends only to lose them...guess i'm a bad friend...however there are some special friends that are important to me,but i've lost them as well...I should not make more friends as it just says that im gonna lose more friends...i think i will keep away from some friends so that i wont pass the unhapiness around...that might be the best solution out

2008-10-20T07:08:00.000-07:00

My life is lonely...well no one cares bout what i do,do what or stuffs...what do i do when i m upset,well...all that i did was hide under my bed and start sobbing...well...no one sees that side of me and i certainly would not wanna show it...For whatever i do now no one cares,whether it is a correct on wrong thing no one cares...People ignore the correct things i do and reprimand or scold me when i m wrong...Just got scolded by someone...i do not really care what or what le...it would be best if you go away from me or whatsoever cause i'm no longer who you know...i've changed.Just came back from a basketball game and lanning...i've thought about lots of things while playing...I found out who are my true friends and who ain't...i've also found out who i hurt and who hurt me...I will not care about anything le...for those whom i've hurt...sorry...Zack told me "I'm sick of home." now i realise what it means...i'm feeling sick of home too...and Promises are meant to be broken...dont have your hopes high...The Higher the hope the greater the disappointment

2008-10-14T05:40:00.001-07:00

Lol...sadded...i think i've changed...not that cheng chuan you all know le...i m feeling very lethargic...i dont feel like doing anything...except basketballing and sleeping...nthg to post le... i seem to hate everyone and getting hated...

2008-10-13T05:47:00.000-07:00

What should i post?i didnt wanna post de,but thn it seems my blog has been dead for 10 DAYS...lol...k la...my chinese got 69/100 art 55/100...lols...well,i shud give 1 sentence to describe my current situation
你说我不该不该不该在这时候说了我爱你. 要怎麽证明我没有说谎的力气...best sentence...haha...
Capricorn finally coming out le...i m glad...haha...tong bei diao liao...lols...haha...bdae cming in 15 days time...thinking might wanna ask people go out on 27th Oct...1 day before...thats for most of my friends...28th probably going once more...with closer friend..probably zack and gang

2008-09-30T06:07:00.000-07:00

I am craving for Jay Chou's CAPRICORN!!! I WANT IT...haha...also,i m feeling afraid...i dont wanna like her apparently...haha...should start avoiding her le...dont wanna 掉进爱情悬崖...like zack say..its a waste of time falling in love...haha...Jay chou 5 songs i like...
1 Mo Jie Zuo
2 Hong Lou Meng Zhong
3 Shi Lian De Qing Wa (or is it another one?)
4Nu Er Hong
5 Dao Xiang

2008-09-25T21:59:00.000-07:00

For those who have noticed that I am not here or bothered to read this post,i didnt come to school because i got a mild shock yesterday night and went to the hospital at about 12 last night...Happened because i might have touched the metal part of the USB when i plug into the com...i felt the electric bite but i blurly never let go...i felt a bit of the current flowing in me still...i went to TTS hospital.they gave me a thorough check and check if my heart got kena shocked...haha...maybe this is what you call... 被电

2008-09-19T06:31:00.000-07:00

Well..probably my actions angered Yi Jin today...would like to apologise but if you dont reply what am i gonna do...?Lols...also,helped Jun Wei and pals for their filming today...finally completed...haha...lols...also...got smacked for nothing...was passing by this guy and when i put my hand on his shoulder to move him...a girl just smacked my hand...lols...super zun sia...the part where i wanna move and the position the girl wanna whack...zzz

2008-09-13T08:15:00.000-07:00

I personally think i like 2 sentences or lyrics now...
1st: 你却微笑的离我而去
2 哭过以后眼泪还是不停的留

2008-09-13T07:58:00.000-07:00

I am listening to Yue Ding by Guang Liang...Am reminded on what i do in sec 1...Went out every saturday...wait at the usual spot until she appears...i feel childish doing that now...also feel childish now...but well...i won't mind waiting 3 years for the same person...I ran just now...no noise at all...The whisling wind against the grass...those are the sounds i hear...i ran until i step into the lift...i panted real bad...have i grown up?i dont think so...haha...No more Fairytale love le...i should study,earn my hp and go to Japan...

2008-09-11T05:53:00.000-07:00

I'm very pissed off by one matter...and that "teacher" gimme lots of bullshit...i dont know who you are though...Damnit...and those people who got nothing better to do and say just fuck off la...dont make me tell you to fuck off in your face...I'm not a good fren,not a good student,not a good VP,not a good son...and not a xxx...etc....I'm not worth everything your gave me...Wo Bu Pei

2008-09-06T03:35:00.000-07:00

Went to the arcade today...well...i was attempting to go up Mount Akina once...with my FD,when i actually wanted to with an Impreza...(I'm still gonna go with an Impreza though.I need to know the difference.)I went so fast till i get 3.13.xxx...lols...I broke my record...and the top record of AMK Hub...then i played Shomaru...broke the record too...3.05.xxx...haha...broke my Akagi timing too.. from 2.26.xxx>2.26.008..
haha...叫我，高桥启介吧！haha...just kidding...

2008-09-04T02:44:00.000-07:00

haha...my 100th post...lols...me and yi jin was chatting on msn and then we started a stupid game...lols...heres the conver

THIS IS MY BLOG-www.happy4ever-95.blogspot.com says:
LOL
†LiTtLeC0nQuEr0r† I am the Somebody who loves you. ｡ｴﾆ､ﾓ ()Do not because others want you to,do because you want it. says:
y lol
THIS IS MY BLOG-www.happy4ever-95.blogspot.com says:
NOTHING
†LiTtLeC0nQuEr0r† I am the Somebody who loves you. ｡ｴﾆ､ﾓ ()Do not because others want you to,do because you want it. says:
lols
THIS IS MY BLOG-www.happy4ever-95.blogspot.com says:
Y LOLS
†LiTtLeC0nQuEr0r† I am the Somebody who loves you. ｡ｴﾆ､ﾓ ()Do not because others want you to,do because you want it. says:
nothing
THIS IS MY BLOG-www.happy4ever-95.blogspot.com says:
LOL
†LiTtLeC0nQuEr0r† I am the Somebody who loves you. ｡ｴﾆ､ﾓ ()Do not because others want you to,do because you want it. says:
y lol
THIS IS MY BLOG-www.happy4ever-95.blogspot.com says:
NOTHING
†LiTtLeC0nQuEr0r† I am the Somebody who loves you. ｡ｴﾆ､ﾓ ()Do not because others want you to,do because you want it. says:
lols
THIS IS MY BLOG-www.happy4ever-95.blogspot.com says:
Y LOLS
†LiTtLeC0nQuEr0r† I am the Somebody who loves you. ｡ｴﾆ､ﾓ ()Do not because others want you to,do because you want it. says:
nothing
THIS IS MY BLOG-www.happy4ever-95.blogspot.com says:
LOL
†LiTtLeC0nQuEr0r† I am the Somebody who loves you. ｡ｴﾆ､ﾓ ()Do not because others want you to,do because you want it. says:
y lol
THIS IS MY BLOG-www.happy4ever-95.blogspot.com says:
NOTHING
†LiTtLeC0nQuEr0r† I am the Somebody who loves you. ｡ｴﾆ､ﾓ ()Do not because others want you to,do because you want it. says:
lols
THIS IS MY BLOG-www.happy4ever-95.blogspot.com says:
Y LOLS
†LiTtLeC0nQuEr0r† I am the Somebody who loves you. ｡ｴﾆ､ﾓ ()Do not because others want you to,do because you want it. says:
nothing
THIS IS MY BLOG-www.happy4ever-95.blogspot.com says:
LOL
†LiTtLeC0nQuEr0r† I am the Somebody who loves you. ｡ｴﾆ､ﾓ ()Do not because others want you to,do because you want it. says:
y lol
THIS IS MY BLOG-www.happy4ever-95.blogspot.com says:
NOTHING
†LiTtLeC0nQuEr0r† I am the Somebody who loves you. ｡ｴﾆ､ﾓ () Do not because others want you to,do because you want it. says:
lols
End of Conver...lols...we had nothing better to do...hahas...diaos...

2008-09-03T01:49:00.000-07:00

歌曲：突然累了
吃饭吃到睡了
我开车开到傻了
我看书看到你了开始怀疑我怎么了
说话说到吐了
我写歌写到疯了
我爱你爱到盲了天知道我又怎么了
不舍得舍不得都分手了
舍不得不舍得散了
爱是你的我是我的完了
原来我只是突然累了
原来我不说了
原来我撑着撑到麻了
原来我不爱了.......

2008-09-03T01:32:00.000-07:00

Feeling upset now...Just heard Mr Yong banning me from choir...well...i don't know whether to laugh,angry or to cry...apparently...to a VP of choir...you are bound to feel sad de...I'm,defitenely,...well...if i m really gonna miss choir might not necessary be a bad thing...well...they might do better without me...Also...i have no mood to say haha...I once thought,if people give up on you,you try to prove them wrong,however you give up on yourself,it is the end of the world...I'm about to...No one to support you,No one to give you hope,No one to help you...you are on your own...I'm really tired...really tired...i should just let go of the rope and fall into the bottomless pit...people might celebrate over it i know...I don't know how to face lots of people...well...for disappointing them...i should also give the VP post up to...or should i try to change...What's the use of being of being a VP and everyone starts complaining bout you...I've disappointed lots of people...I would wanna just say sorry...
我只想在我自己的是世界，和自己的AE86和 FD3S飘移一辈子，忘了烦恼，忘了自己，做自己想要的藤原拓海，高桥启介。我什么都不要，我只要一个真正属于的世界。。。

2008-09-02T06:59:00.001-07:00

YAMAN!!!I GOT INITIAL D COMIC 29-37 NOW!!!!HAHA!!HP GOT NEW BATTERY AND HEADSET!!!HAHA!!!

2008-08-27T05:38:00.000-07:00

I'm beginning to regret my decisions...but i know that...if i decided to do it...i shall stand by it...i shouldn't,because of the price,back out of a thing...it just goes to show one thing,i don't deserve a leadership role and i m not a person who perserves...in that case,even my junior perserves more...and i m not fit to be their senior.also...i have to say,i recently fell out with a friend due to the topic of "waiting"...He told me one thing,you just dont like to WAIT FOR PEOPLE don't you..?the reason i stress on the wait for people...in fact that goes to show how my thinkings are different...so far,i can think of people who DON'T like to wait,i dont like to wait either but i let people wait...No one likes to wait,you will have the "itchy"feeling that makes you pissed...I usually blog jump,and sometimes i love to go to MRC's blog,why?i wont call his blog a blog,i would say its more to a online journal,whereby he jolts down his thinkings...well...back to topic,waiting,you see,in terms of philosophy,when you are lagging,you do not expect people to wait for you,you run and try to get back on track with them...you can't really expect everyone to slow down just for you right?well...thats in terms of philosophy...in terms of daily lives,you are supposed to wait for people to catch up as a form of respect,thats what i failed to do,i admit my mistake...However i still feel pissed due to whatever you said,i think that you just don't know how to apologise...i don't blame you,its just that people are different...Anyway,i have decided...i will not do last minute studying anymore,i will learn to focus and start getting back on track,my lousy marks to me now gives me the motivation to go further,i know i don't want this results anymore,i want to be one that strives in order to achieve goals. Well...looking at mahendran,he doesnt give me the pressure to be better than him,in fact only one can,Hau Yip who's currently in HK...I wanna beat him in everything in the past. From now,its 2 more days to teachers' day,i will be returning to Anderson soon..there is only 3 times where i will return to APS.
1st: CNY 2nd: Teachers day 3rd: Mid Autumn Festival... I just love the mid autumn festival cause you can getta play Chinese Chess,get prizes,look up to the sky and see all the stars and the full moon,gives you the feeling of a traditional festival...you can just let go of everything and just relax for 1 whole night,anybody who wanna go can inform me and if i m going,you can just tag along,its free.

2008-08-26T05:20:00.000-07:00

I've seriously been very pissed this few days...man...people just keep pissing me off...except for my normal friends and else...i dont think i can smile when i see anyone else...perhaps bob mahendran and else...haha...lols...we've been talking bout russell peters this few days...lols...as we were talking,we feel bob is a better comedian...lols...thats the first time i laughed and cried so heartily...also...i feel like saying this " if anybody who cant make me smile comes,I WILL TELL ANYONE OF YOU TO FUCK OFF!!!!" i m trying to stop shouting nasty comments to anyone le...whoever you are you better learn to show some respect dudes...ya...anyway...i dont know why...i just love to quarrel with bob...you see...you wont fall out with one another,you just laugh at the quarrel and start hugging one another again...lols...and mahendran keeps earning himself racist remarks...lols...

2008-08-23T21:17:00.000-07:00

Well yesterday was a very fun day...we went out with the japanese...lols...i was known to them as Fujiwara-san..I got to know some Japanese...Daichi,Junya,Takeyuki,Yuji,Haruki,Makoto and etc...haha...we brought them to Taka at first...nothing to shop....then bugis...go take neoprints and arcade...then me,bob,jere and the girls went to Changi Airport to eat Popeyes...haha...quite fun...then we went to the departure hall at bout 8...we took pictures and then we started "raping" one another...first was me by the japanese...second was bob...third zack...lastly was li kiong...haha...li kiong kena worst...i was the mastermind of everything ^^...we tricked li kiong to take a picture...right after the picture, i said...SAN! NI! ICHI!! GO!!!then we all rape li kiong...we took a picture with Hijiya san too...haha...just emailed hijiya san...haha...thats about it...when they went in, we rushed to say goodbye to them...then me and bob keep saying..." Confucious say,YOU GO TO JAIL BAD BOY!!!"haha...and to (...) please revail who u are...

2008-08-21T08:07:00.000-07:00

Haha...
1st day of Japanese Immersion Programme....went to Malay Heritage Centre and Night Safari...nothing to say...
2nd day...SENTOSA!!! WOW!!!SENTOSA CHANGED!!!WOW!!!!1 whole day of fun...haha...we went driving....touring arnd....wow...MARVELOUS!!! HAha i got to know 2 guys..jap guys...not really handsome to girls but...you see...tthey are like me la...childish la...but well...we got along wel...me,xiaomei,bob,wenyi and me and them...haha....1 is daichik and the other is junior...well...we played the hei bai pei...haha...from sentosa back to school...haha...lols...we played both version...the chinese and the japanese one...haha...perhaps thats a EXCHANGE PROGRAMME!!haha...wont be posting for 2 days...SAYONARA!!!

2008-08-19T07:11:00.000-07:00

Man...can anybody understand the feelings i m feeling now...?lols...except for bob in a same boat...i dont think anyone would...lols...maybe parents are like that...all they say is " Why never get this...?" "Why never get that?" "Why so lousy?" "You can or not?"...well...maybe in a sense or 2...they do mean well...BUT!!! they just doesnt give us what we really want..what we want isnt a PSP,PC,PS3,XBOx or any other latest game in town...but just a parents love and their support...Before my Secondary school life...they still gave me what i wanted...UNTIL 2nd semester i lost everything...everything went wrong...didnt they watch Im Not Stupid 2?dont u understand how a children feels...?i m feeling sad now..instead of asking me whether i enjoy my day they ask me whether i have eaten...lols..i m very disappointed more than they are to me..pupils with good results have supports...and i dont have...only pressure...how would i do well...?my home doesnt taste sweet anymore...like bob...i m anticipating the day i leave home...

2008-08-12T06:32:00.000-07:00

WOW!!!I BEAT BENJAMIN!!we just had a little "debate" whereby their class are targetted by most teachers...at some point he will totally shuttup...haha...!nvm...i dont feel like i won either...ya...soon...after common test i will wanna start training for myself and jun wei.me and my FC,FD and 86.For me i gonna get used to my weaker course...Jun Wei's gonna get some horrid time...Demonic training...
1)Get use to the courses
2)Memorize map
3)Use the cup instead of the map
4)Time attack beat my target for him
5)Challenge me (handicap -50m,maintain lead)
Well...I am feeling down this few days...when we see each other,we look ay one another,then carry on...well...we can just brush past one another without saying hi...well...a bit sad la...My emo Jay list:
Li Kai 离开 An Jing 安静 Ge Qian 搁浅 Ai Qing Xuan Ya 爱情悬崖 Cai Hong 彩虹
Wo Bu Pei 我不配 Tui Hou 退后 Duan Le De Xuan 断了的弦 Gui Ji 轨迹 Yi Lu Xiang Bei 一路向北
Hei Se You Mo

2008-08-11T04:54:00.000-07:00

FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK!!!!LIM YEN U WAN CHEE BYE RIGHT?CHEE BYE CHEE BYE!!!! MAHENDRAN I HATE YOU!!! ^^ JK la...Fuck sia today..mahendran make me dont know wanna cry or laugh the 2nd time...1st time being the throw paper ball one...ya today...we were suppose to study but chose to go arcade...i got my FC...YAMAN!! IT ROCK!!! BUT FUCK IT~!!!! THERE IS A LOSS THERE!!! CB THANKS TO MAHENDRAN!!! lols...i challenged him...FUCK!!! at myogi,THERE CAME MY FIRST FC LOSS!!! i thought he noob (he doesnt know how to gear up) so i purposely stay behind him...i forgot there is this thing called time...!!! at 3...2...1...I wanna overtake that time i realised how paiseh to lose a noob who keep banging on walls and indirectly banging me to block me from overtaking from the inner lane, O.O"...i sat there stupidly as the words appear on the screen...

TIMES UP!!

YOU LOSE!!!
WTF!!!!I SAT STILL in a daze...i fight mahendran again and dont let him le...i won...haha...i dont feel happy though...and ya...i saw the oldest RX-7 near my house...older than my 2 generations of RX-7s'....presenting to you...FB~~!!!

2008-08-06T05:41:00.000-07:00

For some unknown reasons,i am feeling sad today...Lols...i felt sad for Mr Tan...I havent seen him so upset and depressed yet...I understood...All he did is for our sake...Lols...I finally took a good look at him today...his eyes...he called me..and said "Cheng Chuan ar...You know whos the next teacher...?" i said ya...then he said "Ok..can you help me apologise to the teacher for delaying your?" I agreed...I felt that my world suddenly went dark...I asked myself...Is he the Mr Tan as he really is? I even silently called him an antique...i would seriously wanna apologise to him...a song for his feelings..
只剩下钢琴陪我弹了一天睡着的大提琴安静的旧旧的我想你已表现的非常明白我懂我也知道你没有舍不得你说你也会难过我不相信牵着你陪着我也只是曾经希望他是真的比我还要爱你我才会逼自己离开你要我说多难堪我根本不想分开为什么还要我用微笑来带过我没有这种天份包容你也接受他不用担心的太多我会一直好好过你已经远远离开我也会慢慢走开为什么我连分开都迁就着你我真的没有天份安静的没这么快我会学着放弃你是因为我太爱你只剩下钢琴陪我弹了一天睡着的大提琴安静的旧旧的我想你已表现的非常明白我懂我也知道你没有舍不得你说你也会难过我不相信牵着你陪着我也只是曾经希望他是真的比我还要爱你我才会逼自己离开你要我说多难堪我根本不想分开为什么还要我用微笑来带过我没有这种天份包容你也接受他不用担心的太多我会一直好好过你已经远远离开我也会慢慢走开为什么我连分开都迁就着你我真的没有天份安静的没这么快我会学着放弃你是因为我太爱你你要我说多难堪我根本不想分开为什么还要我用微笑来带过我没有这种天份包容你也接受他不用担心的太多我会一直好好过你已经远远离开我也会慢慢走开为什么我连分开都迁就着你我真的没有天份安静的没这么快我会学着放弃你是因为我太爱你

2008-08-04T06:38:00.000-07:00

I'm feeling very sad with your presence...I now hope to leave you forever...I shall try my very best to do it...
一路向北
后视镜里的世界越来越远的道别你转身向背侧脸还是很美我用眼光去追竟听见你的泪在车窗外面排徊是我错失的机会你站的方位跟我中间隔着泪街景一直在后退你的崩溃在窗外零碎我一路向北离开有你的季节你说你好累已无法再爱上谁风在山路吹过往的画面全都是我不对细数惭愧我伤你几回后视镜里的世界越来越远的道别你转身向背侧脸还是很美我用眼光去追竟听见你的泪在车窗外面排徊是我错失的机会你站的方位跟我中间隔着泪街景一直在后退你的崩溃在窗外零碎我一路向北离开有你的季节你说你好累已无法再爱上谁风在山路吹过往的画面全都是我不对细数惭愧我伤你几回我一路向北离开有你的季节方向盘周围回转着我的后悔我加速超越却甩不掉紧紧跟随的伤悲细数惭愧我伤你几回停止狼狈就让错纯粹
回到过去
一盏黄黄旧旧的灯时间在旁闷不吭声寂寞下手毫无分寸不懂得轻重之分沉默支撑跃过陌生静静看着凌晨黄昏你的身影失去平衡慢慢下沉黑暗已在空中盘旋该往哪我看不见也许爱在梦的另一端无法存活在真实的空间想回到过去试着抱你在怀里羞怯的脸带有一点稚气想看你看的世界想在你梦的画面只要靠在一起就能感觉甜蜜想回到过去试着让故事继续至少不再让你离我而去分散时间的注意这次会抱得更紧这样挽留不知还来不来得及想回到过去思绪不断阻挡着回忆播放盲目的追寻仍然空空荡荡灰蒙蒙的夜晚睡意又不知躲到哪去一转身孤单已躺在身旁想回到过去试着抱你在怀里羞怯的脸带有一点稚气想看你看的世界想在你梦的画面只要靠在一起就能感觉甜蜜想回到过去试着让故事继续至少不再让你离我而去分散时间的注意这次会抱得更紧这样挽留不知还来不来得及想回到过去沉默支撑跃过陌生静静看着凌晨黄昏失去平衡慢慢下沉你的身影想回到过去

2008-07-31T05:05:00.000-07:00

FUCK !!!! FUCK!!!! THIS IS A FUCKING DAY!!! TODAY SUCK!!! lols....today was a stupid CHEE BONG DAY!!! ESPECIALLY PHHYSICS!!!! diaos...damn funny...starting lesson that time i talking to phaedra...then a paper ball hit me...i damn du lan so take the ball go to mahendran say "Chee bong la throw me for fuck la kanina....!then take the ball throw....*AIM SO JIA LAT!!!HIT HIS CERT for the improve for his studies instead of him...CB!!! YONG YAO MING saw it then ask me come in front and stand...then ask mahendran also...he damn du lan...ask mahendran get paper ball throw me...hit my head,then he shout again...ask me pick up throw him...then i throw damn light,,,then he said,eh..recess never eat ar?throw harder....then keep throwing until got 1 time i stand right in front of him and I MISS O.O!!!! so i pick up and then throw again..MISS AGAIN!!! WTF?!?!?! HE DIN TRY SIAM LEHS!!!ZZZ O.O...then keep throwing till hhe ask us go back and sit...then lesson bout light...CB...Mr Prem came into the picture...he say if Koh in class got long hair (until like girl) and wearing skirt,who he scared most?MR PREM!!!!dots...then talk about no light then everyone talk about he how black cant see him...lol...racist joke...then say he head bald so shiny how dark also can see....-.-" stupid sia...lols...then all bout Mr Prem laugh until like fuck....Shall end here

2008-07-29T06:37:00.001-07:00

2nd time this day...apparently i knew i did it overboard...i dont know what to do le...perhaps i m out of my mind...in a blank mind now...i dont know how to face anyone...those who know knows...I dont know why but time is supposed to heal wounds...but after seconds,minutes,hours,days,months,years and centuries,etc.its still etched onto my mind...its like drinking poison..it hurts and sometimes it would feel so much better off dead

2008-07-29T03:48:00.000-07:00

Justt when out...we went bowling...!!! IT SUCKS...except every last one...every game last shot i bound to strike de...or spare...or both...haha...bowling sucks..lose like mad siol...anyway arcade is fun..FINALLY got zack to play san guo...I ALMOST CHOPPED MY HEAD OFF!!! We played as we promised...I play first round 3 dollar he play 2nd...he thn chooses the card (unknwn ) and that card de country he play...i added that he get Zhu Ge Liang gold de i Kill myself the head let him sit...cause i play so long also dnt hv...this was in the conv yesterday...we played i got a stupid bullshit card...GUESS WHAT HE GOT?!?! ZHUGELIANG !!!! -.-" silver....haha...heng ar...i bought 3 cards... Zhao Yun,Jiang Wei and Wei Yan...cause i didnt bring my deck...haha...dnt feel like talking le...

2008-07-27T01:14:00.000-07:00

The 9th day Mr Fong left,Sunny. "isnt this line familiar?" perhaps i m crazy...i got over everything le.well...i might get to see him next tuesday,maybe not.i hope i do.at least to find out how he is and how he is going on with life.so...i decided to post today but i dont think anyone's gonna read it anyway.well some simple things to say.Arcade,Friends,Games,Com and Weekends.
Arcade- Fuck IT!!!KNNBCCBKPKB!!! I ALMOST TOUCHED 3.00.xxx IN AKINA!!!WITH JOSHUA!!!FUCK I CN STILL SCREW UP!!!FUCK!!!!
well i gonna get shu guo cards for San Guo...well...if zack,you gonna okay let fate decide your deck...lols...being lame...
Friends- Made up with Joshua...lols...went dota yesterday...saw ni ta and his gang,we played 3 v 2,LOLS!!! NI TA ME AND HIS FREN LOST!!!wait...i m out...i DCed in the middle of the game...if i was still in we wld hv won...haha...i and joshua were discussing..lets farm together...i dnt deny creeps u oso..haha...so funny...thn joshua farmed all his items and owned...dots....
Games Com same...just got a haircut..lols...zack...my hair is finally normal... ^^

2008-07-21T05:37:00.000-07:00

苔藓绿了木屋路深处翠落的孟宗竹乱石堆上有雾这种隐居叫做江湖箭矢漫天飞舞竟然在城墙上遮蔽了日出是谁在哭冲你懂你懂你匆匆有多少的蛮力就拉多少的弓听我说武功无法高过寺院的钟禅定的风静如水的松我命格无双一统江山狂胜之中我却黯然语带悲伤我一路安营扎下篷青铜刀锋不轻易用苍生为重我命格无双一统江山破城之后我却微笑绝不恋战我等待异族望天空歃血为盟我等效忠浴火为龙残缺的老茶壶几里外马蹄上的尘土升狼烟的城池这种世道叫做乱世那历史已模糊刀上的锈却出土的很清楚是我在哭qq:18365918序你去你去你继续我敲木鱼开始冥想这场战役我攻城掠地想冷血你需要勇气挥剑离去我削铁如泥你去你再去你继续不敌我致命的一击远方的横笛吹奏你战败的消息保持著杀气想赢的情绪让我君临天下的驾驭我命格无双一统江山狂胜之中我却黯然语带悲伤我命格无双一统江山破城之后我却微笑绝不恋战我等待异族望天空歃血为盟我等效忠浴火为龙

This is the lyrics for Jay song Wu Shuang...i was listening to it just now...well reminds me of Chi Bi and the match between me and CK... Well...this is the decks we used

Me: 吴国：周瑜，孙权，吕蒙，阚泽，小乔。
CK：其他国：吕布，金环三结，张梁，司马徽，刘表，周仓
Each of us won a round lols...my Zhou Yu help me win de...his obvious Lu Bu la...other general of his bullshit one...ya...back to Wu Shuang...its mostly bout Zhao Yun and Lu Bu...speaking of Zhao Yun...i like both Zhou Yu and Zhao Yun best now...both ZY's...haha...dots..Jay cosplay as Zhao Yun and Lu Bu...rocks man san guo!!!

2008-07-20T02:29:00.000-07:00

Thanks Mr Fong...I am alive again...I have put another engine in me and now i'm gonna strive for an A2 For English...and i m gonna show you... IM INTERESTED IN ENGLISH!!! Although We still miss you,we have to carry on in life like what you said...
Ha...changed my skin again...and I now,feel like racing Initial D again...with a totally new me...I shall change my mentality from now...Anyway...that Lim Yen...zzz...lols...keep saying i call her shorty... -.-" lols..and somehow my blog is known to more people now... -.-" zzz...and people keep saying i love to "dots"...dots...well...I've learn a lot of things through a lot of things...from friends...movies...games...From Friends: I learn that girls are indeed the most ****** thing on earth from Lim Yen (no offense),Friends shall help one another in need from Lindy...lols...and many more...but i think this is most meaningful,from Mr Fong: There are many more farewells...and the most painful one...wait till your first break-up..ok...that was a joke...the most important part is not the farewell but before the farewells...those happy times...from movies...i learn lessons like "do it not because others want you to but do it because you want it" from initial d and chinese phrases like "略懂"=know a little and "一时瑜亮"a perfect match...never mind if your dont understand anything...-.-"

2008-07-18T19:52:00.000-07:00

A Tribute to Mr Fong:
You are really a great teacher and I think its a loss for both 3D and the classes you taught...dots...and only you are the only one who stand by us even our results are lousy...i know you might be disappointed but you didnt show it out and instead encourage us to do better. You are different from other teachers as they keep saying how lousy we did and give us all sorts of discouraging words...they want us to do better but instead they crushed the hope we have to push on...you are different and thats why you rock! you will always be in our heart Mr Fong !

Yesterday, just before we leave for recess,we had a picture with Mr Fong...i was just beside him...at that particular moment my tears wanna roll down from my eyes.I could feel there's tears in my eyes.yet i tried so hard not to let it roll down...i dont want him to see me sad...i dont want him to leave without a piece of mine..again 2 songs to share my feelings.

我们的开始是很长的电影放映了三年我票都还留着冰上的世界脑海中还在旋转望着你慢慢忘记你朦胧的时间我们溜了多远冰刀画的圈圈起了谁改变如果再重来会不会稍嫌狼狈爱是不是不开口才珍贵再给我两分钟让我把记忆结成冰别融化了眼泪你妆都花了要我怎么记得记得你叫我忘了吧记得你叫我忘了吧你说你会哭不是因为在乎..

有没有口罩一个给我释怀说了太多就成真不了也许时间是一种解药也是我现在正服下的毒药看不见你的笑我怎么睡得着你的身影这么近我却抱不到没有地球太阳还是会绕没有理由我也能自己走你要离开我知道很简单你说依赖是我们的阻碍就算放开那能不能别没收我的爱当作我最后才明白有没有口罩一个给我释怀说了太多就成真不了也许时间是一种解药也是我现在正服下的毒药看不见你的笑我怎么睡得着你的身影这么近我却抱不到没有地球太阳还是会绕没有理由我也能自己走你要离开我知道很简单你说依赖是我们的阻碍就算放开那能不能别没收我的爱当作我最后才明白看不见你的笑要我怎么睡得着你的身影这么近我却抱不到没有地球太阳开始环绕环绕没有理由我也能自己走掉是我说了太多就成真不了也许时间是一种解药解药也是我现在正服下的毒药你要离开我知道很简单你说依赖是我们的阻碍就算放开那能不能别没收我的爱当作我最后才明白

2008-07-14T06:01:00.000-07:00

Final Part.Tou Wen Zi D...I learn lotsa things...How a person should perserve...haha...yeps...finall defeated my best in Akina 3.01.084...zack...wan a match FC vs GC8V...you choose the car...akina down...well...i also wanna play akagi up...any cars...

2008-07-14T05:31:00.000-07:00

Thats the 1st part.well 2nd part...After you told me all this...i cant relax...i'm uptight,very angry for that particular moment and feeling lost...i can no longer sleep.i started listening to songs...well...then it randomed to Qing Tian...it does suit me for that moment.especially the lyrics故事的小黄花从出生那年就飘着童年的荡秋千随记忆一直晃到现在rui sou sou xi dou xi lasou la xi xi xi xi la xi la sou吹着前奏望着天空我想起花瓣试着掉落为你翘课的那一天消失的那一天下雨的那一天花落的那一天教室的那一间,我怎么看不见消失的下雨天我好想再淋一遍没想到失去的勇气我还留着好想再问一遍你会等待还是离开刮风这天我试过握着你手但偏偏雨渐渐大到我看你不见还要多久我才能在你身边还要多久我才能够在你身边等到放晴的那天也许我会比较好一点等到放晴那天也许我会比较好一点从前从前有个人爱你很久但偏偏风渐渐把距离吹得好远偏偏风渐渐把距离吹得好远但偏偏雨渐渐把距离吹得好远好不容易又能再多爱一天但故事的最后你好像还是说了拜拜但故事的最后你好像还是说了bye bye. i m still feeling hurt,and i m gonna ignore a paticular someone( not ni ta )...stupid attitude...i rather you f**k your way outta my side forever...

2008-07-14T05:13:00.000-07:00

Talking bout Chi bi...ok...i will just say the story...The Battle of Red Cliffs unfolded in three stages: an initial skirmish at Red Cliffs followed by a retreat to the Wulin battlefields on the northwestern bank of the Yangtze, a decisive naval engagement, and Cao Cao's disastrous retreat along Huarong Road.
The combined Sun-Liu force sailed upstream from either Xiakou or Fankou to Red Cliffs, where they encountered Cao Cao's vanguard force. Plagued by disease and low morale due to the series of forced marches they had undertaken on the prolonged Southern Campaign (de Crespigny 2003), Cao Cao's men could not gain an advantage in the small skirmish which ensued, so Cao Cao retreated to Wulin (north of the Yangtze River) and the allies pulled back to the south.
Cao Cao had moored his ships from stem to stern, possibly aiming to reduce seasickness in his navy, which comprised mostly northerners who were not used to living on ships. Observing this, divisional commander Huang Gai sent Cao Cao a letter feigning surrender and prepared a squadron [2] of capital ships described as mengchong doujian (蒙衝鬥艦).[3] The ships had been converted into fire ships by filling them with bundles of kindling, dry reeds, and fatty oil. As Huang Gai's "defecting" squadron approached the midpoint of the river, the sailors applied fire to the ships before taking to small boats. The unmanned fire ships, carried by the southeastern wind, sped towards Cao Cao's fleet and set it ablaze. Within a short time smoke and flames stretched across the sky, and a large number of men and horses either burned to death or drowned (Chen c. 280:54.1262-63).
Following the initial shock, Zhou Yu and the allies led a lightly armed force to capitalize on the assault. The northern army was thrown into confusion and was utterly smashed. Seeing the situation was hopeless, Cao Cao then issued a general order of retreat and destroyed a number of his remaining ships before withdrawing (Chen c. 280).
Cao Cao's army attempted a retreat along Huarong Road, including a long stretch passing through marshlands north of Dongting Lake. Heavy rains had reduced the track to a thick mire, making the road so treacherous that many of the sick soldiers had to carry bundles of grass on their backs and use them to fill the road, to allow the horsemen to cross. Many of these soldiers drowned in the mud or were trampled to death in the effort. To the misery of Cao Cao's army, the allies, led by Zhou Yu and Liu Bei, gave chase over land and water until they reached Nan Commandery (南郡). Combined with famine and disease, this decimated Cao Cao's remaining forces. Cao Cao then retreated north to his home base of Ye, leaving Cao Ren and Xu Huang to guard Jiangling, Yue Jin stationed in Xiangyang, and Man Chong in Dangyang (Chen c. 280).
The allied counterattack might have vanquished Cao Cao and his forces entirely. However, the crossing of the Yangtze River dissolved into chaos as the allied armies converged on the riverbank and fought over the limited number of ferries. To restore order, a detachment led by the allied general Gan Ning established a bridgehead in Yiling to the north, and only a staunch rearguard action by Cao Ren prevented further catastrophe (Eikenberry 1994:60; de Crespigny 2007:239).
Analysis
A combination of Cao Cao's strategic errors and the effectiveness of Huang Gai's ruse had resulted in the allied victory at the Battle of Red Cliffs. Zhou Yu had previously observed that Cao Cao's generals and soldiers comprised mostly cavalry and infantry, and few had any experience in naval warfare. Cao Cao also had little support among the people of Jing province, and thus lacked a secure forward base of operations (Eikenberry 1994:60). Despite the strategic acumen Cao Cao had displayed in earlier campaigns and battles, in this case he had simply assumed that numerical superiority would eventually defeat the Sun and Liu navy. Cao's first tactical mistake was converting his massive army of infantry and cavalry into a marine corps and navy: with only a few days of drills before the battle, Cao Cao's troops were ravaged by sea-sickness and lack of experience on water. Tropical diseases, to which the southerners had long been immune, also plagued the soldiers of the north with the debilitating effects of sickness rampant in Cao Cao's camps. Although numerous, Cao Cao's men were already exhausted by the unfamiliar environment and the extended southern campaign, as Zhuge Liang observed: "Even a powerful arrow at the end of its flight cannot penetrate a silk cloth" (Military Documents 1979:193).
The uncharacteristically poor preparation and miscalculations displayed by Cao Cao during this campaign may have been partly due to the recent death of his strategist and advisor Guo Jia. Cao Cao himself had commented: "Had Guo Jia been with us, I would never have got into such trouble" (Chen c. 280:14:433). Another key advisor, Jia Xu, had recommended after the surrender of Liu Cong that the overtaxed armies be given time to rest and replenish before engaging the armies of Sun Quan and Liu Bei, but Cao Cao disregarded the advice (Eikenberry 1994:60). Cao Cao's own thoughts regarding his failure at Red Cliffs suggest that he held his own actions and misfortunes responsible for the defeat, rather than the strategies utilised by his enemy during the battle: "…it was only because of the sickness that I burnt my ships and retreated. It is out of all reason for Zhou Yu to take the credit for himself." (Chen c. 280:54:1265).

2008-07-13T04:35:00.000-07:00

Just finish watching Chi bi Episode 1. Rocks man...Zhou Yu.he is ok.Xiao Qiao is a bit hot.Zhu Ge Liang is a bit gay.Well...go watch it people..lols...well...i m thinking of my feelings...well...surprising i feel that i would prefer being alone...at least i won't get hurt and won't hurt.for example in school...i will get hurt there and hurt others too...at home too...the time i think i like best is whenever i go arcade with or without zack...So many songs describe me now, 轨迹，无尽的思念，寂寞边界，最长的电影，爱情悬崖，安静，开不了口，退后，我不配，搁浅，你听得到 and mostly 世界末日.Lots of songs right?all sad songs.Here's the lyrics
想笑来伪装掉下的眼泪点点头承认自己会怕黑我只求能借一点的时间来陪你却连同情都不给想哭来试探自己麻痹了没全世界好像只有我疲惫无所谓反正难过就敷衍走一回无所无所谓反正难过就敷衍走一回但愿绝望和无奈远走高飞天灰灰会不会让我忘了你是谁夜越黑梦违背难追难回味我的世界将被摧毁也许事与愿违累不累睡不睡单影无人相依偎有谁肯安慰我的世界将被摧毁也许颓废也是也许颓废也是另一种美...i m always feeling lonely and hurt?anyone to share the pain?

2008-07-05T05:38:00.000-07:00

I was feeling a bit angry and upset in the morning till i went out with zack to arcade....Renewed my so-dead FD.Well...whats the use?Its so slow...lols...i played AE86 on akina and shomaru...i broke record ^^
AE86 DDH Akina: 3.02.016 > 3.01.9**
AE86 CWD Shomaru: 3.17.*** > 3.11.***
HAHA...Zack say my shomaru damn gay...in the course there is a M curve...meaning its like a M.I and Zack called it the McDonalds drive thru...Zack say that curve i damn fast...of course..i always frequent mcs...haha...jkjk la..lols...I'm trusting my 86 more...i got some people to thank for being with me when i m down, thanks people

2008-07-01T21:30:00.000-07:00

Well...Musical ended...1st performance suck.2nd performance i would say rock!big difference in the 2 performance...well...the guys are always playing cards...lol...we invented 2 new games.50 and another game.lols...well...its been 2 late nights..haha..well...drama a lot people cry sia...haha..also yesterday ni ta and the rest stepped down le...sadded...we gave them a present...A big PORK! lol...me,ni ta,zack,jeremiah and teck yong all wenna pork...we wanted toss ni ta down...cause we were carrying him wad,then we wanted to lift him up and throw him down...lols...but we didnt la...haha