Ouch..my ear still hurts..seen the doctor thrice le...this pain has been with me for 1 week..and i m sleepless for at least 4nights out of so many nights after i got this condition..hais..never mind..i just got a shock..this condition is known as otitis media..its in Greek i think..just checked it on wikipedia..hais,dont wanna say the contents here..my worst scenario..go op,burst eardrum to get rid of bacteria behind it...personally damn scared..really scared..no person to share the pain...nobody to ease the pain...hais,why dont i just die?less pain..nobody cares..i can just leave the world silently...without a word..and the world will still continue rotate...life goes on,just that there is 1 man less..XXbillions in the world?what differences does it make to have 1 less?
Saturday, May 16, 2009
Hais..My ear hurts alot..dont know why...my right ear..really hurts...but all this cant be compared to the pain in my heart..maybe my existence is no longer important to you anymore..is it?if you dont want me to be there...if you dont want me to be in your world..please tell me...i will..for your sake..really..whatever you say..so long its within my means..i will do it..really...
hahas..listening to Jay Chou music and a few others recently..not Jay Chou love songs..but Jay Chou Zhong Guo Feng...especially those from Yi Ran Fan Te Xi..anybody can find PLEASE TELL ME OK?I WANT IT BADLY!hahas..songs i recommend from other singers.. Claire Guo - Xia Yi Ge Tian Liang Nicholas Teo (Zhang Dong Liang)- Hurt , Bei Ji Xing De Yan Lei Gary Chaw ( Cao Ge) - Qi Chuang Ge S.H.E- Re Dai Yu Lin
Realised I haven't post for a long time le...until Marriot and Bob was talking bout it today..at pizza hut...hahas..life has been ok for me recently..and ok means..average..not good,not bad...Well..start by talking bout CCA-wise..News from Mdm Yam saying that we seniors have to go back to rehearse for a performance on 22nd July..so we cant step down YET!.personally i felt a bit happy..it cleared the emptiness in me..for example..you have been regular for your CCA for 4 WHOLE YEARS!and you suddenly do not have to go..it does feel a bit weird..and when i spread the news around..i personally wasnt really happy with the responds,though i cant comment anything cause i SIMPLY DO NOT have the rights too..hais..never mind that..moving on to my personal life...hahas..have been in a daze at times..sometimes i just love to stare out of the window..hoping that she would just walk by to go back to her class..well..looking at her from a distance..i could see smiles on her face,and sometimes i would smile too...i am happy when she is happy..i've only truly cared about your existence when you're gone..and all i want to say is..I love you and i miss you.