I keep reminding myself not to think of you..but i can't..It hurts to think of you..Why did things turn out this way..?Is what people say true?When they keep asking me those questions..when they tell me to concentrate on my studies and not think of you...i just can't do it...it makes me wanna cry when i want to..have i done something wrong?i seem to be unaccepted every where..every where i go i don't feel 100% happy..i'm just not perfect without you..its all my fault..everything's my fault..i'm sorry..if you ever come by and see this..and get upset..i'm sorry...i really miss you..i really do..do i have to be blamed for missing you too much?recently listening old classics by the 4 Heavenly Kings of HK..and some titles really suit what i feel right now...songs like..忘记你我做不到,忘情水 and 我是不是该安静走开..
Wednesday, April 8, 2009
My life sucks..My life's a failure..I am a failure..maybe i should just give up on myself...
Tuesday, April 7, 2009
Hais,i have come to a point where i don't know who i am..Its obvious to so many people that i need you in my life..and for these few weeks,you just aren't there..i'm very afraid of losing you..but can i be selfish? i want to be,but can i?i will do whatever you want me to do..really..i will xD. felt down this few weeks...i lost my voice recently..and just regain it back..that period of time...if not for some friends,i would really have cried..seriously..my voice is THAT IMPORTANT to me..like adora said..your voice is your most valuable asset right now..yes..the short adora..she is doing well i guess,just that she had pressure and stress..well..her choir is definitely better than ours...hais..realised her importance...to me and to the choir..she's a good friend.one that i can confide in..and to the choir,if she had not left the school.the pres post would definitely be hers..she is the person who can bring this choir to a silver or even gold..i can't...really...hahas..she can be a good leader..and friend to me..(hahas..we had a past,and because it ended,it is in the past now xD)haha..and i should thank bob too xD..that guy is the frigging ass that made fun of my voice in school everytime xD..hahas...anyway sports day...saw this frigging kuku,bloody ass noobtard..hais..go kp me..then kp him back..hahas xD