Jayjay.

Sunday, November 30, 2008

Hais..i miss your kiddy voice...how i wish u will always be my side...but i know very well its not gonna happen...we are 2 different people...i will always think of play and you of study...i dont wanna change and you won't too...we wont be together...so i will try to put more gap between us so that i dont think of u too much...right now i just wanna get everything in choir going right...do what i m supposed to do...and forget you

Friday, November 28, 2008

sian...i want to be free...but i got even restricted further...i hate this world...i hate myself...i hate being controlled...if i get controlled,its just tt i dn wanna ruin anything i build up...its not worth it...i dno wad i wan now...maybe it is always best to stay lonely...i dn wan anybody by my side...it hurts when you need a someone but he/she isnt by ur side...hais...its saddening...well...saw her today...she is definitely different when i was in sec 1...she changed...i haven't talked to her directly for 2 years le...i only remembered vividly that she asked me not to talk to her for a year and i did...but 2 years past so quickly...hais...i really miss her...

Sian..today stayed back to help ms ng...quite ok la...WOW! 1 DAY WITHOUT MY BRO IS 10 YEARS OF HAPPINESS!!!haha...thats the good part...

Friday, November 21, 2008

Dots...just backed from camp...haha..group 1 got first...my group...Camp din go as bad as i expected...Lots of things went wrong but din caused any real big problems...just the flow of events...Lets start from Day 1..Icebreakers quite ok,Choir was bad,Lunch was the best meal of all..(chicken rice),Obstacle course cancelled for sectionals.Choir was a bit better...Station Games,just the flow of the games was bad...haha...then shower,then dinner...watch movie...WOW!!!NC16!!!then Blind man trail then sleep...Camp com has meeting until 6am..
Rise and Shine..Camp com wake up late..Morning Ex...then Breakfast...thn Obstacle Course...quite fun la...Choir...much better...Lunch was ok..then me and zack set off for Amazing Race...We finished Station 1 then follow group 2 to Station 2 bukit batok...then we head for science centre with group 3..then left for raffles city...me walked with Group 1 to city hall..haha...then waited for group 4 then went back school...Well...i became sick and i was very grateful...to joshua for taking care of me..haha...then i got better then go for choir then limelight then go supper and sleep...Camp com meeting till 4am...
Day 3 woke up at 7 go wake the guys...had breakfast then watch movie...then play wacko..haha...then the debrief and sorts then went home...me slept from 3pm - 9pm XD

Thursday, November 13, 2008

Well...i've decided to cheer up again...thanks to 4 people...well,3 friends and 1 other person...who is the other person?Jay Chou lor...well...thanks to his song Dao Xiang...i feel that i should cheer up...
对这个世界如果你有太多的抱怨
跌倒了就不敢继续往前走
为什么人要这么的脆弱堕落
请你打开电视看看多少人为生命在努力勇敢的走下去
我们是不是该知足
珍惜一切就算没有拥有
.....
不要这么容易就想放弃
就像我说的
追不到的梦想换个梦不就得了
为自己的人生鲜艳上色
先把爱涂上喜欢的颜色
笑一个吧功成名就不是目的
让自己快乐快乐这才叫做意义
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the other 3 are Vivian,Tan Ying and Phaedra...i dont know if your really mean it or not...but i seriously appreciated your being there...Thanks...now...off to go to meet joshua.. XD

2nd time i posted...my mood isnt that great now...i cried...i broke down...i cant bear the pain...

Throughout this whole day...I've been in the slumps...nothing is going exactly right...everythings wrong...sians...from the start of the day to the end...damn...i seriously feel like crying...

Wednesday, November 12, 2008

Lol..i seldom have this urge to update but today is a very good day to post...haha,i started the fun day by meeting Joshua at amk hub at 2.30....haha...when i reached there i dont know where is he so i called him...well...they give this shit bout saying not available or stuff...thus...i went round looking for him...then a minute later,he called...this is the moment we saw each other..lols...he say he called me earlier on but same thing happen..lols...we called each other at the same time...lols..we went to singtel...look at handphone again...I DONT CARE!I WANT MY N85!!!EVEN IF IT BEATS I SPEND LESS IN JAPAN!!!lols...then we go arcade...haha...YAMAN!!!AFTER A FEW TRIES!!!I BEAT MY RECORD IN AKINA!!!3.00.8xx...XD...then joshua was like smirking already...keep asking me why i so happy...lols...then we go lan....again...good speed..lols...we played dota..$5.50 each...but i decided to treat him since i so happy...XD...then we go take 262 home...he go home i go meet nic and mahendran...
dots...never so happy before...played BASKETBALL IN THE RAIN!!!XP...play ABC...those air ball de do 5 pumpings...haha...then was damn wet le...then we start cracking jokes...saying it would be so much better for a white shirt girl to be playing with us...lols...(all the sick jokes)...then after that we wait for nic uncle come fetch us and bring us home...haha...nic uncle the ENGLISH SO FUNNY!!lols...nic uncle say nic not guai dont like listen to advices...say he finished coughing go play in the rain again...then say call his father who's overseas...haha...lols...then mahendran coughed...then nic uncle said...SEE...COUGH ALREADY...then nic say..:"lol...indian more easy cough"...i started laughing with mahendran le...then his uncle said...what?u think indian made of pancake ar?i don't care...i gonna call your father and tell him...you are gonna be grounded...i cut your allowance...then me and mahendran laughed like mad le..lols...was laughing throughout the way home...haha...
TODAY IS THE MOST HAPPIEST DAY!!!
THANKS JOSH,NIC and MAHENDRAN!!!

Monday, November 10, 2008

Finally understood why i played initial d le...finally understood my pursuit to get better...Well...to begin first...i was playing inital D with this guy called Dlice (Subaru Impreza WRX GC8V Lvl 30.)not to show off but my skills are on par with him...Why talk bout him?cause he is the guy who used to own me...and he is the only guy in initial d arcade world whom i really respect...ran into him yesterday and today...today we had our first conver...Then i played with this guy(dif guy).He uses the RX-7 Spirit (dots...RX-7 so popular XP) Shomaru and Tsuchisaka...i won once and 2nd one he let me win...to be truthful i shouldnt win any...i realised something in the meantime...Zack is right...i am too arrogant le...so arrogant that i should not be counted a pro...well...i should start learning to respect my opponents...ya...thats the end of initiald ...back to my life...well...spent more than 20 dollars in this 2 days...me and Joshua went to lan for this 3 days...haha...well...we went searching for our new phones today...we wanted N85 or N81...but its a bit too ex...thn we went lan...then go home...well...in fact...i start hating to go home...especially now...My parents just love to break promises...they said if i get good results thn get me a phone...thn now say why do i need a good phone (N85)...well...my thoughts are that if you cant honour your promises...damn...using a good phone is just bullshit....its just that they dont wanna buy...sianz...damn fucked up now...ending here le

Thursday, November 6, 2008

I didn't enjoyed my trip as supposed...well...lots of things went wrong...some know that i got scolded on the first day...i was leaning on the railing...a toddler girl came and she tripped and fall...her dad scolded me for not letting her hold the railings...theres so much factors that i wasn't in the wrong...the worst thing was...that ass sounded very like mr fong...his accent and stuffs...(it wasnt mr fong though)...reminded me of the past...its very mind bothering...i feel like i'm in a void....a world of nothingness....guess its meant to be that way...well...up next i think i shall get the choir camp ready...i did quite a lot of planning...back to malaysia...well,initial d at genting sucks...i won every match except 1...whereby this malay blocked me like what...and ya...if possible...zack...go drive uphill and downhill of genting when you get a car...theres lots of curves...(just joking..if u want to thn go lor...dnt come back with a wrecked car)...down at malacca...things are more ok...but my mood's still down...didn't feel good throughout the whole trip...it sucks....its more like i went alone...just that during shopping and eating,theres my parents...i m like playing all by myself throughout the trip...i m still lonely

Saturday, November 1, 2008

Name 20 people(no specific order)
1.Bob
2.Zack
3.Shaun
4.CK
5.Lup Seng
6.Li Kiong
7.Wen Yi
8.Ying Han
9.Phaedra
10.Jacelyn
11.Hau Yip
12.MRC
13.Lindy
14.Yi Jin
15.Joshua Chin
16.You Yue
17.Vivian
18.Ophelia
19.Kang Wei
20.Jordy
1.How did you meet 14 (yi jin)?
Sec Sch,My choir junior
2.What would you do if you never meet 1 (bob)?
lol...like i said,no bob no fun.
3.What if 9 and 20 date each other (phaedra,jordy)?
They've never met
4.Will 6 and 17 date each other (li kiong.vivian)?
I would love to see that
5.Describe no. 3 (shaun).
one of my best friend...cheerful
6.Is 8 attractive (ying han)?
she is quite ok with her specs but without she looks a bit weird
7.Describe no. 7 (wenyi).
wenyi ar...one of my best friend among the opposite sex,well...is cheerful,just that she hides her real feelings from others
8.Do you know any family members of no. 12 (MRC)?
Not really
9.What if 18 confesses he/she likes you (Ophelia) ?
impossible
10.What language does 15 speak(Joshua Chin)?
English,real funny Chinese and Hokkien
11.Who's going out with 9 (Phaedra)?
dont know.
12.How old is 16(You Yue)?
er...turning 16 tomorrow
13.When did you last speak to 13(Lindy)?
like now?
14.Who is 2 favourite singer (Zack)?
haha...like me lor..Jay Chou
15.Would you ever date with 4(CK)?
already dating
16.Will you ever date with 1(Bob)?
already dating
17.Is 19 single(Xiao Kang)?
duh...
18.What's 10's last name(Jacelyn)?
Xue Wei
19.School of 3(Shaun)?
MFSS
20.Where does 6 live(Li Kiong)?
Teachers Estate
21.What is your favourite thing of 5(Lup Seng)?
His dog...called Zhou Jie Lun
22.Have you seen 11 naked(Hau Yip)?
We were separated...
Next 5 people to do this: Zack,Joshua Chin,Ying Han,Shaun and CK

too many ask me le...cannot...k la...clarify the whole matter...i m not leaving kaes??LOLS...i m just going to malaysia for 4 D 3 N nias...coming back on the 7th...k?