Wednesday, August 27, 2008
I'm beginning to regret my decisions...but i know that...if i decided to do it...i shall stand by it...i shouldn't,because of the price,back out of a thing...it just goes to show one thing,i don't deserve a leadership role and i m not a person who perserves...in that case,even my junior perserves more...and i m not fit to be their senior.also...i have to say,i recently fell out with a friend due to the topic of "waiting"...He told me one thing,you just dont like to WAIT FOR PEOPLE don't you..?the reason i stress on the wait for people...in fact that goes to show how my thinkings are different...so far,i can think of people who DON'T like to wait,i dont like to wait either but i let people wait...No one likes to wait,you will have the "itchy"feeling that makes you pissed...I usually blog jump,and sometimes i love to go to MRC's blog,why?i wont call his blog a blog,i would say its more to a online journal,whereby he jolts down his thinkings...well...back to topic,waiting,you see,in terms of philosophy,when you are lagging,you do not expect people to wait for you,you run and try to get back on track with them...you can't really expect everyone to slow down just for you right?well...thats in terms of philosophy...in terms of daily lives,you are supposed to wait for people to catch up as a form of respect,thats what i failed to do,i admit my mistake...However i still feel pissed due to whatever you said,i think that you just don't know how to apologise...i don't blame you,its just that people are different...Anyway,i have decided...i will not do last minute studying anymore,i will learn to focus and start getting back on track,my lousy marks to me now gives me the motivation to go further,i know i don't want this results anymore,i want to be one that strives in order to achieve goals. Well...looking at mahendran,he doesnt give me the pressure to be better than him,in fact only one can,Hau Yip who's currently in HK...I wanna beat him in everything in the past. From now,its 2 more days to teachers' day,i will be returning to Anderson soon..there is only 3 times where i will return to APS.
1st: CNY 2nd: Teachers day 3rd: Mid Autumn Festival... I just love the mid autumn festival cause you can getta play Chinese Chess,get prizes,look up to the sky and see all the stars and the full moon,gives you the feeling of a traditional festival...you can just let go of everything and just relax for 1 whole night,anybody who wanna go can inform me and if i m going,you can just tag along,its free.