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Wednesday, August 27, 2008
I'm beginning to regret my decisions...but i know that...if i decided to do it...i shall stand by it...i shouldn't,because of the price,back out of a thing...it just goes to show one thing,i don't deserve a leadership role and i m not a person who perserves...in that case,even my junior perserves more...and i m not fit to be their senior.also...i have to say,i recently fell out with a friend due to the topic of "waiting"...He told me one thing,you just dont like to WAIT FOR PEOPLE don't you..?the reason i stress on the wait for people...in fact that goes to show how my thinkings are different...so far,i can think of people who DON'T like to wait,i dont like to wait either but i let people wait...No one likes to wait,you will have the "itchy"feeling that makes you pissed...I usually blog jump,and sometimes i love to go to MRC's blog,why?i wont call his blog a blog,i would say its more to a online journal,whereby he jolts down his thinkings...well...back to topic,waiting,you see,in terms of philosophy,when you are lagging,you do not expect people to wait for you,you run and try to get back on track with them...you can't really expect everyone to slow down just for you right?well...thats in terms of philosophy...in terms of daily lives,you are supposed to wait for people to catch up as a form of respect,thats what i failed to do,i admit my mistake...However i still feel pissed due to whatever you said,i think that you just don't know how to apologise...i don't blame you,its just that people are different...Anyway,i have decided...i will not do last minute studying anymore,i will learn to focus and start getting back on track,my lousy marks to me now gives me the motivation to go further,i know i don't want this results anymore,i want to be one that strives in order to achieve goals. Well...looking at mahendran,he doesnt give me the pressure to be better than him,in fact only one can,Hau Yip who's currently in HK...I wanna beat him in everything in the past. From now,its 2 more days to teachers' day,i will be returning to Anderson soon..there is only 3 times where i will return to APS.
1st: CNY 2nd: Teachers day 3rd: Mid Autumn Festival... I just love the mid autumn festival cause you can getta play Chinese Chess,get prizes,look up to the sky and see all the stars and the full moon,gives you the feeling of a traditional festival...you can just let go of everything and just relax for 1 whole night,anybody who wanna go can inform me and if i m going,you can just tag along,its free.
1st: CNY 2nd: Teachers day 3rd: Mid Autumn Festival... I just love the mid autumn festival cause you can getta play Chinese Chess,get prizes,look up to the sky and see all the stars and the full moon,gives you the feeling of a traditional festival...you can just let go of everything and just relax for 1 whole night,anybody who wanna go can inform me and if i m going,you can just tag along,its free.
Tuesday, August 26, 2008
I've seriously been very pissed this few days...man...people just keep pissing me off...except for my normal friends and else...i dont think i can smile when i see anyone else...perhaps bob mahendran and else...haha...lols...we've been talking bout russell peters this few days...lols...as we were talking,we feel bob is a better comedian...lols...thats the first time i laughed and cried so heartily...also...i feel like saying this " if anybody who cant make me smile comes,I WILL TELL ANYONE OF YOU TO FUCK OFF!!!!" i m trying to stop shouting nasty comments to anyone le...whoever you are you better learn to show some respect dudes...ya...anyway...i dont know why...i just love to quarrel with bob...you see...you wont fall out with one another,you just laugh at the quarrel and start hugging one another again...lols...and mahendran keeps earning himself racist remarks...lols...
Saturday, August 23, 2008
Well yesterday was a very fun day...we went out with the japanese...lols...i was known to them as Fujiwara-san..I got to know some Japanese...Daichi,Junya,Takeyuki,Yuji,Haruki,Makoto and etc...haha...we brought them to Taka at first...nothing to shop....then bugis...go take neoprints and arcade...then me,bob,jere and the girls went to Changi Airport to eat Popeyes...haha...quite fun...then we went to the departure hall at bout 8...we took pictures and then we started "raping" one another...first was me by the japanese...second was bob...third zack...lastly was li kiong...haha...li kiong kena worst...i was the mastermind of everything ^^...we tricked li kiong to take a picture...right after the picture, i said...SAN! NI! ICHI!! GO!!!then we all rape li kiong...we took a picture with Hijiya san too...haha...just emailed hijiya san...haha...thats about it...when they went in, we rushed to say goodbye to them...then me and bob keep saying..." Confucious say,YOU GO TO JAIL BAD BOY!!!"haha...and to (...) please revail who u are...
Thursday, August 21, 2008
Haha...
1st day of Japanese Immersion Programme....went to Malay Heritage Centre and Night Safari...nothing to say...
2nd day...SENTOSA!!! WOW!!!SENTOSA CHANGED!!!WOW!!!!1 whole day of fun...haha...we went driving....touring arnd....wow...MARVELOUS!!! HAha i got to know 2 guys..jap guys...not really handsome to girls but...you see...tthey are like me la...childish la...but well...we got along wel...me,xiaomei,bob,wenyi and me and them...haha....1 is daichik and the other is junior...well...we played the hei bai pei...haha...from sentosa back to school...haha...lols...we played both version...the chinese and the japanese one...haha...perhaps thats a EXCHANGE PROGRAMME!!haha...wont be posting for 2 days...SAYONARA!!!
1st day of Japanese Immersion Programme....went to Malay Heritage Centre and Night Safari...nothing to say...
2nd day...SENTOSA!!! WOW!!!SENTOSA CHANGED!!!WOW!!!!1 whole day of fun...haha...we went driving....touring arnd....wow...MARVELOUS!!! HAha i got to know 2 guys..jap guys...not really handsome to girls but...you see...tthey are like me la...childish la...but well...we got along wel...me,xiaomei,bob,wenyi and me and them...haha....1 is daichik and the other is junior...well...we played the hei bai pei...haha...from sentosa back to school...haha...lols...we played both version...the chinese and the japanese one...haha...perhaps thats a EXCHANGE PROGRAMME!!haha...wont be posting for 2 days...SAYONARA!!!
Tuesday, August 19, 2008
Man...can anybody understand the feelings i m feeling now...?lols...except for bob in a same boat...i dont think anyone would...lols...maybe parents are like that...all they say is " Why never get this...?" "Why never get that?" "Why so lousy?" "You can or not?"...well...maybe in a sense or 2...they do mean well...BUT!!! they just doesnt give us what we really want..what we want isnt a PSP,PC,PS3,XBOx or any other latest game in town...but just a parents love and their support...Before my Secondary school life...they still gave me what i wanted...UNTIL 2nd semester i lost everything...everything went wrong...didnt they watch Im Not Stupid 2?dont u understand how a children feels...?i m feeling sad now..instead of asking me whether i enjoy my day they ask me whether i have eaten...lols..i m very disappointed more than they are to me..pupils with good results have supports...and i dont have...only pressure...how would i do well...?my home doesnt taste sweet anymore...like bob...i m anticipating the day i leave home...
Tuesday, August 12, 2008
WOW!!!I BEAT BENJAMIN!!we just had a little "debate" whereby their class are targetted by most teachers...at some point he will totally shuttup...haha...!nvm...i dont feel like i won either...ya...soon...after common test i will wanna start training for myself and jun wei.me and my FC,FD and 86.For me i gonna get used to my weaker course...Jun Wei's gonna get some horrid time...Demonic training...
1)Get use to the courses
2)Memorize map
3)Use the cup instead of the map
4)Time attack beat my target for him
5)Challenge me (handicap -50m,maintain lead)
Well...I am feeling down this few days...when we see each other,we look ay one another,then carry on...well...we can just brush past one another without saying hi...well...a bit sad la...My emo Jay list:
Li Kai 离开 An Jing 安静 Ge Qian 搁浅 Ai Qing Xuan Ya 爱情悬崖 Cai Hong 彩虹
Wo Bu Pei 我不配 Tui Hou 退后 Duan Le De Xuan 断了的弦 Gui Ji 轨迹 Yi Lu Xiang Bei 一路向北
Hei Se You Mo
1)Get use to the courses
2)Memorize map
3)Use the cup instead of the map
4)Time attack beat my target for him
5)Challenge me (handicap -50m,maintain lead)
Well...I am feeling down this few days...when we see each other,we look ay one another,then carry on...well...we can just brush past one another without saying hi...well...a bit sad la...My emo Jay list:
Li Kai 离开 An Jing 安静 Ge Qian 搁浅 Ai Qing Xuan Ya 爱情悬崖 Cai Hong 彩虹
Wo Bu Pei 我不配 Tui Hou 退后 Duan Le De Xuan 断了的弦 Gui Ji 轨迹 Yi Lu Xiang Bei 一路向北
Hei Se You Mo
Monday, August 11, 2008
FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK!!!!LIM YEN U WAN CHEE BYE RIGHT?CHEE BYE CHEE BYE!!!! MAHENDRAN I HATE YOU!!! ^^ JK la...Fuck sia today..mahendran make me dont know wanna cry or laugh the 2nd time...1st time being the throw paper ball one...ya today...we were suppose to study but chose to go arcade...i got my FC...YAMAN!! IT ROCK!!! BUT FUCK IT~!!!! THERE IS A LOSS THERE!!! CB THANKS TO MAHENDRAN!!! lols...i challenged him...FUCK!!! at myogi,THERE CAME MY FIRST FC LOSS!!! i thought he noob (he doesnt know how to gear up) so i purposely stay behind him...i forgot there is this thing called time...!!! at 3...2...1...I wanna overtake that time i realised how paiseh to lose a noob who keep banging on walls and indirectly banging me to block me from overtaking from the inner lane, O.O"...i sat there stupidly as the words appear on the screen...
TIMES UP!!
YOU LOSE!!!
WTF!!!!I SAT STILL in a daze...i fight mahendran again and
dont let him le...i won...haha...i dont feel happy though...and ya...i saw the oldest RX-7 near my house...older than my 2 generations of RX-7s'....presenting to you...FB~~!!!
TIMES UP!!
YOU LOSE!!!
WTF!!!!I SAT STILL in a daze...i fight mahendran again and
dont let him le...i won...haha...i dont feel happy though...and ya...i saw the oldest RX-7 near my house...older than my 2 generations of RX-7s'....presenting to you...FB~~!!!
Wednesday, August 6, 2008
For some unknown reasons,i am feeling sad today...Lols...i felt sad for Mr Tan...I havent seen him so upset and depressed yet...I understood...All he did is for our sake...Lols...I finally took a good look at him today...his eyes...he called me..and said "Cheng Chuan ar...You know whos the next teacher...?" i said ya...then he said "Ok..can you help me apologise to the teacher for delaying your?" I agreed...I felt that my world suddenly went dark...I asked myself...Is he the Mr Tan as he really is? I even silently called him an antique...i would seriously wanna apologise to him...a song for his feelings..
只剩下钢琴陪我弹了一天睡着的大提琴安静的旧旧的我想你已表现的非常明白我懂我也知道你没有舍不得你说你也会难过我不相信牵着你陪着我也只是曾经希望他是真的比我还要爱你我才会逼自己离开你要我说多难堪我根本不想分开为什么还要我用微笑来带过我没有这种天份包容你也接受他不用担心的太多我会一直好好过你已经远远离开我也会慢慢走开为什么我连分开都迁就着你我真的没有天份安静的没这么快我会学着放弃你是因为我太爱你只剩下钢琴陪我弹了一天睡着的大提琴安静的旧旧的我想你已表现的非常明白我懂我也知道你没有舍不得你说你也会难过我不相信牵着你陪着我也只是曾经希望他是真的比我还要爱你我才会逼自己离开你要我说多难堪我根本不想分开为什么还要我用微笑来带过我没有这种天份包容你也接受他不用担心的太多我会一直好好过你已经远远离开我也会慢慢走开为什么我连分开都迁就着你我真的没有天份安静的没这么快我会学着放弃你是因为我太爱你你要我说多难堪我根本不想分开为什么还要我用微笑来带过我没有这种天份包容你也接受他不用担心的太多我会一直好好过你已经远远离开我也会慢慢走开为什么我连分开都迁就着你我真的没有天份安静的没这么快我会学着放弃你是因为我太爱你
只剩下钢琴陪我弹了一天睡着的大提琴安静的旧旧的我想你已表现的非常明白我懂我也知道你没有舍不得你说你也会难过我不相信牵着你陪着我也只是曾经希望他是真的比我还要爱你我才会逼自己离开你要我说多难堪我根本不想分开为什么还要我用微笑来带过我没有这种天份包容你也接受他不用担心的太多我会一直好好过你已经远远离开我也会慢慢走开为什么我连分开都迁就着你我真的没有天份安静的没这么快我会学着放弃你是因为我太爱你只剩下钢琴陪我弹了一天睡着的大提琴安静的旧旧的我想你已表现的非常明白我懂我也知道你没有舍不得你说你也会难过我不相信牵着你陪着我也只是曾经希望他是真的比我还要爱你我才会逼自己离开你要我说多难堪我根本不想分开为什么还要我用微笑来带过我没有这种天份包容你也接受他不用担心的太多我会一直好好过你已经远远离开我也会慢慢走开为什么我连分开都迁就着你我真的没有天份安静的没这么快我会学着放弃你是因为我太爱你你要我说多难堪我根本不想分开为什么还要我用微笑来带过我没有这种天份包容你也接受他不用担心的太多我会一直好好过你已经远远离开我也会慢慢走开为什么我连分开都迁就着你我真的没有天份安静的没这么快我会学着放弃你是因为我太爱你
Monday, August 4, 2008
I'm feeling very sad with your presence...I now hope to leave you forever...I shall try my very best to do it...
一路向北
后视镜里的世界越来越远的道别你转身向背侧脸还是很美我用眼光去追竟听见你的泪在车窗外面排徊是我错失的机会你站的方位跟我中间隔着泪街景一直在后退你的崩溃在窗外零碎我一路向北离开有你的季节你说你好累已无法再爱上谁风在山路吹过往的画面全都是我不对细数惭愧我伤你几回后视镜里的世界越来越远的道别你转身向背侧脸还是很美我用眼光去追竟听见你的泪在车窗外面排徊是我错失的机会你站的方位跟我中间隔着泪街景一直在后退你的崩溃在窗外零碎我一路向北离开有你的季节你说你好累已无法再爱上谁风在山路吹过往的画面全都是我不对细数惭愧我伤你几回我一路向北离开有你的季节方向盘周围回转着我的后悔我加速超越却甩不掉紧紧跟随的伤悲细数惭愧我伤你几回停止狼狈就让错纯粹
回到过去
一盏黄黄旧旧的灯时间在旁闷不吭声寂寞下手毫无分寸不懂得轻重之分沉默支撑跃过陌生静静看着凌晨黄昏你的身影失去平衡慢慢下沉黑暗已在空中盘旋该往哪我看不见也许爱在梦的另一端无法存活在真实的空间想回到过去试着抱你在怀里羞怯的脸带有一点稚气想看你看的世界想在你梦的画面只要靠在一起就能感觉甜蜜想回到过去试着让故事继续至少不再让你离我而去分散时间的注意这次会抱得更紧这样挽留不知还来不来得及想回到过去思绪不断阻挡着回忆播放盲目的追寻仍然空空荡荡灰蒙蒙的夜晚睡意又不知躲到哪去一转身孤单已躺在身旁想回到过去试着抱你在怀里羞怯的脸带有一点稚气想看你看的世界想在你梦的画面只要靠在一起就能感觉甜蜜想回到过去试着让故事继续至少不再让你离我而去分散时间的注意这次会抱得更紧这样挽留不知还来不来得及想回到过去沉默支撑跃过陌生静静看着凌晨黄昏失去平衡慢慢下沉你的身影想回到过去
一路向北
后视镜里的世界越来越远的道别你转身向背侧脸还是很美我用眼光去追竟听见你的泪在车窗外面排徊是我错失的机会你站的方位跟我中间隔着泪街景一直在后退你的崩溃在窗外零碎我一路向北离开有你的季节你说你好累已无法再爱上谁风在山路吹过往的画面全都是我不对细数惭愧我伤你几回后视镜里的世界越来越远的道别你转身向背侧脸还是很美我用眼光去追竟听见你的泪在车窗外面排徊是我错失的机会你站的方位跟我中间隔着泪街景一直在后退你的崩溃在窗外零碎我一路向北离开有你的季节你说你好累已无法再爱上谁风在山路吹过往的画面全都是我不对细数惭愧我伤你几回我一路向北离开有你的季节方向盘周围回转着我的后悔我加速超越却甩不掉紧紧跟随的伤悲细数惭愧我伤你几回停止狼狈就让错纯粹
回到过去
一盏黄黄旧旧的灯时间在旁闷不吭声寂寞下手毫无分寸不懂得轻重之分沉默支撑跃过陌生静静看着凌晨黄昏你的身影失去平衡慢慢下沉黑暗已在空中盘旋该往哪我看不见也许爱在梦的另一端无法存活在真实的空间想回到过去试着抱你在怀里羞怯的脸带有一点稚气想看你看的世界想在你梦的画面只要靠在一起就能感觉甜蜜想回到过去试着让故事继续至少不再让你离我而去分散时间的注意这次会抱得更紧这样挽留不知还来不来得及想回到过去思绪不断阻挡着回忆播放盲目的追寻仍然空空荡荡灰蒙蒙的夜晚睡意又不知躲到哪去一转身孤单已躺在身旁想回到过去试着抱你在怀里羞怯的脸带有一点稚气想看你看的世界想在你梦的画面只要靠在一起就能感觉甜蜜想回到过去试着让故事继续至少不再让你离我而去分散时间的注意这次会抱得更紧这样挽留不知还来不来得及想回到过去沉默支撑跃过陌生静静看着凌晨黄昏失去平衡慢慢下沉你的身影想回到过去